Saturday, November 25, 2006 at 20:12
thru the back door.
(for those with not so good eyesight)
alrite ppl, cya all on 31st dec. goodbye.
yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na me xiang ni
yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji
xiang yao dui ni shuo de bu gan shuo de ai
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai
.....
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wang ji ni
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
xiang zhe na yi tian hui you ren dai ti
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wei wei xiao
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
you xiang le yi bian ni wen rou de lian
zai wo wang ji zhi qian
yc - no hard feelings. wad happened was wad deserved to happen. n ur thanks was enuf, i hav much more to thank u for for me being wad i m today.
once again i'm back here editing tis post. heh.. seriously i dunoe wad u'r tinking..
i dunoe who u r refering to.. how i hope its me.. n how disgraceful will it be if i'm wrong.. HAHA.
now u noe y manU-chel was the last match?? n i guess its probably God's will tat i would not win even a single cent frm my bets n let me hav another chance of contacting u.. nah.. not God's will.. it was my decision to stop smsing u.. seriously i'm in a state of S&S. spear n shield. mao tun. at the very end of the day, i hope u will not let me regret my decision.. live well, stay happy, win best commander n keep smiling k.. hahaha.. if fate has it, may we meet once more. itily.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006 at 23:55
alrite, tis post has served its purpose. done.
at 23:49
the last.
为什么结果还是一样？
我想这也是最好的结果吧。
我虽然失败过一次，
但还是会再试多一次。
我会尽力把你的笑容给忘了，
可是这需要时间。
在我还没完全忘掉你前，
我可能会忘了我该忘了你，
所以我需要你来提醒我。
我想四年的差距在这一刻是太多了，
也知道我们也不很谈的来，
所以我想我们在一起是很难的。
他们说长痛不如短痛，
所以希望在我还没爱上你之间，
我会懂得如合忘了你那灿烂的笑容。
算了，该结束的始终还是会结束。
你要好好的过，
不要忘了怎么笑。
因为你的笑，
能够带给大家更多的笑容。
Monday, November 20, 2006 at 22:01
I Have A Dream
I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope, with anything
If you see the wonder, of a fairytale
You can take the future, even if you fail
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
Oh yeah
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through, reality
And my destination, makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness, still another mile
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope, with anything
If you see the wonder, of a fairytale
You can take the future, even if you fail
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream
at 21:43
Because You Loved Me
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
at 21:27
Shi Jie Mo Ri | End of the World
xiang xiao lai wei zhuang diao xia de yan lei
Want to laugh to disguise the tears that's flowing
dian dian tou cheng ren zi ji hui pa hei
Nod my head to admit that I'm afraid of the dark
wo zhi qiu neng jie yi dian de shi jian lai pei
I only wish that you can spare some time for me
ni que lian tong qing dou bu gei
But you don't even give me the slightest sympathy
xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei
Want to cry to see if I'm dead without emotion yet
quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei
It's like in the whole world I'm the only one who's exhausted
wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui
Doesn't matter, because even if I'm down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with
dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei
Just wish that desperation will go away
tian hui hui hui bu hui
The sky is gray
rang wo wang le ni shi shui
Will it make me forget who you are?
ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them
wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei
My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will
lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu ren xiang yi wei
Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with
ye yue hei meng wei bei you shui ken an wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?
wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui
My world is about to be destroyed
ye xu tui fei ye shi...
Maybe being blue is...
xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei
Want to cry to see if I'm dead with out emotion yet
quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei
It's like in the whole world I'm the only one who's exhausted
wu suo wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui
Doesn't matter, because even if I'm down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with
dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei
Just wish that desperation will go away
tian hui hui hui bu hui
The sky is gray
rang wo wang le ni shi shui
Will it make me forget who you are?
ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them
wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei
My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will
lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu reng xiang yi wei
Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with
ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?
wo de shi jie jiang be cui hui
My world is about to be destroyed
ye xu tui fei ye shi ~ ling yi zhong mei
Maybe being blue is ~ another sort of beauty
at 21:13
Hei Se Yo Mo | Black Humor
nan guo
Feeling miserable
shi yin wei men le hen jiu
It's because I've been depressed for too long
shi yin wei xiang le tai duo
It's because I've thought too much
shi xin li qi le zuo yong
It's a psychological effect from the heart
ni shuo / ku xiao chang chang pei zhe ni
You say that forced smile is always around you
zai yi qi you dian mian qiang
We're only reluctantly being together
gai bu gai xian zai xiu le wo
Should you just leave me right now?
*bu xiang tai duo
*Shouldn't think too much
wo xiang yi ding shi wo
I think it's definitely me
ting cuo nong cuo gao cuo
Who heard wrong and did it wrong
bai tuo / wo xiang shi ni de nao dai you wen ti
Please, I think it's the problem with your head
sui bian shuo shuo
Casually saying
qi shi wo zao yi jing cai tou kan tou bu xiang duo shuo
I've already guessed it and seen it, but don't want to say more
zhi shi wo pa yan lei cheng bu zhu
I'm just scared that I can't withhold my tears
bu dong / ni de hei se you mo
I don't understand your black humor
xiang tong / que you zai kao dao wo
I've thought it through, but you came and puzzled me again
shuo san / ni xiang hen jiu le ba
Splitting up, have you thought about it for long?
wo bu xiang chai chuan ni
I don't want to expose you
dang zuo / shi ni kai de wan xiao
I'll just treat it as a joke you made up
xiang tong / que you zai kao dao wo
I've thought it through, but you came and puzzled me again
shuo san / ni xiang hen jiu le ba
Splitting up, have you thought about it for long?
bai gei ni de hei se you mo
I've been defeated by your black humor
Repeat *
shuo san / ni xiang hen jiu le ba
Splitting up, have you thought about it for long?
wo de ren zhen bai gei hei se you mo
My seriousness has been defeated by your black humor
at 01:28
lots of silence
its not looking good.. the dream last nite didnt help it at all.. hai.. seriously my brain n my heart (or wherever its coming from) is telling me different tings.. i look at my life n all i c is lots of evryday ting. its boring.. n the worst ting is i dun mind it!!! omg.. yea yea, i noe i'm a boring person.. ppl play soccer i play soccer.. play finished ppl go drink i go home.. y?? not coz i dun drink, i juz c no point gg to a place sitting down to drink alcohol.. ppl go club i go where? of coz at home.. pay so much to go in n jump arnd? nah not me.. ppl go ADD i go where?? of coz stay home.. y? coz i dun wish to put myself in a situation where i really wish i was sumwhere else coz i cant stand the amount of socialising i hav to do.. oh yea i do consider even being wif frens socialising.. coz it requires effort to prevent me frm offending others.. it takes energy.. i dun hav much of tat nowadys.. heh.. i dunoe. today is the end of wk8 of sch. there's 9 more wks to go?? i dunoe.. no longer interested in keeping count.. sch doesnt really pose much of a headache for me anymore, i dun really giv a damn anymore.. its jus the fyp tat sucks.. still hav to do the report.. wondering if i fck care the report cla will kp to woo anot.. i tink she will la.. hahaha.. fck sia.. if only she wont.. zzzzz... fcked up.. one fyp make me scold 3 fck.. really got problem alr.. hai... on a brighter note, its ending soon... 6 days more to be exact.. couldnt find wad i wan today.. hope can find by midwk if not i tink i will heck care alr.. hahhaa..
toking abt today, noon went vivo wif papa n meimei.. on train saw reagan.. he's fatter now.. other den tat tink he probably looks less chiongster alr.. hahhaa.. found out tat derren in army alr.. omg.. so fast.. den went vivo walk den went the boat tat is docked there for a book sale.. walk one rnd the ship come down alr.. den at vivo we only entered like 2 shops, addidas n nike.. hahhaa.. den after tat came home tat time go srgn cut hair.. no more hair again.. well, for those who tot i was keeping my hair long, i wasnt.. juz dint bothered to go cut it.. i guess red cross is the ting tat keeps me keep my life in place.. cutting of fingernails, hair etc.. if not for red cross, i'll probably look more like a barbarian den anyting else.. hahaha.. so cut hair finished went find my meimei the sunblock lotion.. den looked for my stones.. bud couldnt find.. den came home n rotted liao.. tml go sch for rubbish lessons den tue morning go do fyp (last rnd i tink) den lessons den home.. wed lessons in morning den afternn tink come home get ready for camp alr ba.. den must plan properly coz thur nite at yc hse fri go camp straight.. so only bringing very little tings for camp i hope.. hahaha. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... blah blah blah....
Saturday, November 18, 2006 at 00:11
8 days till the end
i guess u were rite, i m way too close to them. maybe i m indeed treating them more den wad i m tinking i'm treating them as.. bud i guess its good tat the end is near.. becoz today i juz realised totally tat when u r too near, u dun see alot of tings tat u will easily c when u r further back.. so i've started taking the steps backwards n it'll continue till Operation Bastard.. upon the completion of tat, my journey wil oso end.. wif tat, i leave u all wif tis song, Xin Gan Bao Bei frm Andy Lau.. hahhaa
Thursday, November 16, 2006 at 18:32
when the world seems so dark
tonite had lots of tots come to my mind while in sch..
sometimes i get so tired of evryting n i really juz wana shut myself away from the world.. so tired of all tat i see, all tat i live thru.. yet i noe i will not do tat, becoz of the tings tat i hav to do juz to get my life back on track when i've decided to open up again.. there's juz too many tings to do to get back my life.. bud i really tink it would be very nice if i could do just tat..
anway its really sad tat evry sch day i get reminded of the fact tat the days where the ten of us would occupy 2 rows of tables in class during lessons, stand arnd trying to decide which foodcourt to go for meals, going out after classes or ponning them altgt to go to west coast crc to play pool, booking the court n playing badminton, spending a flag day's morning at pearly's hse watching scary movie3/slping on the sofa.. u noe i really miss those days, when evryting was so nice.. now?? all i hav r lessons seated by myself paying full attention becoz i got nth else to do, walk out of class immediately after lessons n head straight for any foodcourt tat i feel lyk gg for lunch, having it within 15mins b4 leaving the foodcourt, walking arnd sch to either t11a 3rd floor toilet or the lib while waiting for the nxt lesson, go home straight after sch or go to the lab n do my fyp, spending my time on the train listening to my hp n basically waiting for my diploma to roll to my hse.. tats all i hav now.. how i miss year 1... hai....
maybe it is true? let it rest.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 at 22:11
its 200...
so fast 200 posts.. anw doubt it will reach 250.. hahaha.. k.. so today supposed to go sch for woo lesson frm 1 to 2 only.. bud since ytd kena fck by tat stomach so decided dun go beta.. den today wake up eat alr play fm.. den tinking wan go the meeting not.. den rain.. haha.. den after tat ask alina arnd 2 like tat their meeting how liao she say at point 5 out of 7, meaning gg to end.. so i tot no nid go alr.. den spent abt 30mins of a very low time at home.. dun wish to say wad went thru my mind during tat 30mins.. den after tat decided to go CP check my account n borrow books.. so went out.. den recieved sms frm alina den found out tat after so long their meeting haven end.. so reached CP go find them first.. juz nice reached there they end.. hahhaa.. den went to lib find books.. all those i wan find one all dun hav.. sengkang lib abit disappointing.. hahaa.. den in the end anyhow borrowed 2 books.. den went buy sushi to eat den went cold storage?? eh no.. went mac.. den after sum time came home.. tml 8am lesson... zzzz.. sitting alone again i tink.. hahha.. tink after sch doing fyp ba.. end up must wear shoes again... zzzz.. i'm trying to reduce the time of me wearing tat sports shoes coz there's about 6 corns/corn-to-be on my right leg alr.. n corns hurt... so yea.. hope they go missing soon or i'll juz cut them off till it bleeds.. hahaha..
i do evryting for a reason.. there's a reason y i left.. it wasnt easy to stop myself frm gg back down the escalator.. bud i noe i shldnt n thankfully i dint.. for the others, do not do more den u all shld.. sum tings r best left on its own, for nature to do its course.. if its meant to be it will be, no point rushing it.. in case u'r wondering, sumday i will take tat train wif u if given the chance.. sumday, not today..
at 00:28
pain
okie i'm back feeling much beta den juz nw.. went to slp after posting juz now den nw back.. anw juz nw while i was under extreme pain frm my stomach, i tot abt the different types of pain.. physical n emotional to be general...
i certainly tink i can withstand emotional pain beta den physical pain.. i mean i was all ready to giv up all my money juz to stop feeling so pain juz nw.. bud of coz no1 was there to elevate my pain as well as take my money so i guess i dint.. bud at times physical pain really hurts.. bud emotional pain is the one tat lasts.. maybe i gues tats y ppl like to inflict physical pain on themselves so tat it overshadows their emotional pain, bud its all juz temporary.. physical pain will the most result in scar formation tat will only serve to remind them of the emotional pain they once had.. no point.. if got pain i would maybe hav done it, tat is provided i hav any emotional pain first.. hahhaa.. nah, i too cold blooded to be emotionally pained for long..
anyway, i feel like shit rite now.. very tired yet very free.. i c evryone like busy rushing their fyp report etc bud i m like gg to die when dec reaches.. ah... wait till reach den slowly die la.. hope i can finish wadeva rubbish tats due after dec b4 dec.. oh man.. pain starting to come back... shant stay much longer..
isit for the ending? or isit wad u really feel? i dunoe.. still counting down.. maybe if u ask me not to, i wont. nah... tinking too much once again..
Tuesday, November 14, 2006 at 20:22
P - A - I - N !!!!
VERY PAIN!!!!!!!!!
Monday, November 13, 2006 at 18:16
wth.. liverpool lost 3 nil.. zzz
nah.. i'm not a Reds fan.. nor a Gunner fan.. bud IF (a VERY big IF) liverpool had led at halftime n arsenal catch back to draw by full time i'll be ALOT richer.. IF.......
yuching u once commented my posts r all similiar.. trying to hint here hint there.. its not i dun wana put it here.. its not appropriate to put it here nor tell anyone.. so i wont.. hahaha.. so bear wif more hintings if i do bother to..
anyway haven really decided if i shld publish tis post or juz save it till a later date den publish.. c how la.. currently got 60% chance i'll publish it.. hahhaa.. we shall c...
lets tok abt my SP password.. its 9 characters coz i initially wanted tat one 5 character nia.. which is not enuf.. so its now *****2006.. the * r NOT *.. i juz dun wan to reveal it.. hahaha.. bud y 2006.. yes coz its the current year.. n its oso the yr where tings will come to an end.. back in 2004 i had a ting about dead man walking.. it was basically when i "died" n no longer was the old me.. now at 2006, there r tings meant for me to end.. so yea.. wad will 2007 be like? i canot answer tis qns at the moment.. maybe my last post for tis blog i'll be able to answer tis more confidently. we shall c...
do u noe tat i usually reply sms as soon as i read them if i intend to? bud its different when its urs.. i dun.. sumtimes i dun even noe if i shld reply or shld i quickly put an end to the sms-ing.. coz i do not noe wad u'r tinking.. i do not noe wads happening over the other side.. hai.. nvm.. its juz another few more days till the end.. blah blah blah....
Sunday, November 12, 2006 at 14:53
lost of thoughts.. dunoe wad i wan say oso...
Saturday, November 11, 2006 at 20:26
worst day of my life so far
great.. one stomach flu can defeat me like tat.. dunoe how many donkey years nv go c doc.. den tis fcking shit damn bth.. hai... $38.. go in the doc there sit less den 2mins go out liao.. wth man.. zzzzzz.. no strength to type much.. bud really very sian.. ytd spent so much sms arranging today's tingy den end up at home slp.. afternn was supposed to go PS watch step up wif mw lt they all.. end up.... den now supposed to be at BH playing soccer.. end up they now 3 ppl there nia.. hahaha.. gone... nxt time organise more diff alr.. all sure blame me y no1 go today.. hahhaa.. coz all sms me i juz tell them go ask jeremy.. tat shit sure nv care one.. hahha.. gone la gone.. the pain tis morning still okie. reached home really like fck.. end up vomitted once n diarhhoea thrice.. den bth ask my meimei call my papa to tell him i wan c doc.. waited arnd 1hr 30mins den he reached home. in between tink i drifted in n out of consciousness ba.. hahhaa.. hai.. now must eat charcoal.. n 3 other type of medicine.. will eat sparingly.. can keep for nxt time.. hahhaa.. i guess yu ching is rite.. in times of emergency ppl will really do much beta den usual.. my meimei at home usually ask her do one small ting only oso ask me to get out of her room den today very fun.. keep ask her do tis do tat.. hahhaa.. the ting is, will they step up to it?? zzz... given wad i saw today, its gona take a huge leap up.. we shall c... argh... feel like shitting again.. bud after eating the medicine my stomach the muscles all paralysed alr.. wan squeeze out the shit oso cant.. aaaaaaaaaaaa..... tink shall go off soon. go back to slp.. thanks evryone for the concern.. bud concern doesnt ease my pain.. only doc the best.. hahahhaa..
thanks for the effort bud no thanks, its all gona end soon. do no more den u shld.
Friday, November 10, 2006 at 18:25
a different world
i guess tats the place tat i came from.. hai.. guess 2006 will end on a low......
whole day infront of com.. eyes gg blind.. zzzz...
i nid strength, not tat i do not hav enuf, bud becoz i nid more. u aint me, u aint noe how i feel.
at 01:08
oh man
argh... feel like vomitting.. hahaa. juz now evening went out find qw.. den went plaza eat dinner arnd 5 plus.. den go his hse there teach emaths till juz nw 11 plus.. all the way inbetween nv eat anyting.. den now come home got so many rubbish left for the bin to clear.. so ate spagetti, burger, you tiao, egg.. now is in a hyperglycaemic state (high blood glucose).. really nauesa... omg.. feeling rather slpy.. bud how to slp?? gone la.. lata maybe go downstair walk one rnd c will help anot.. hahaa.. tml got lots of tings to do.. today morning oso accomplished nth much.. zzzz.. wkend coming up, holz gg to end.. enjoyed nth, learnt nth.. wad an elearning week.. BLAH..
tis time round i guess i wont comit the same old mistake again.. no more putting my heart n soul into the preparations only for the event to be like shit.. i'll do the minimum, n hopefully we'll get to c a wonderful performance.. we shall c.. afterall, its all gona end sumday, so y not today? sixteen days - there was a time...
Thursday, November 09, 2006 at 01:35
when nothing matters anymore
there's 2 tings i wana blog about.. 1 is once again red cross.. 2 is about a show tat i watched juz now on arts central.. lets start wif 2, shall leave 1 for lata c i got mood anot to blog.. haha..
so the show tis episode was featuring abt making manipulations to the human body.. like tatoos, piercings, inserting tings underneath the skin n etc.. kinda gross, not tat i care.. bud the ting abt it is personally i'm against it.. i may even say i'm against piercing earholes for earrings n etc.. its not so much abt the pain tat may be involved or anyting, its more of going against nature for me.. i'm a great lover of nature.. i believe evryting happens for a reason.. there's a reason y we were born wif complete earlopes n as wad we r.. by piercing them or even dying our hair, i find tat its rather not-wad-we-were-meant-to-be.. i dun like the idea.. tats y i dun dye my hair or pierce my ears even thou i hav no sch rules to worry abt.. its a personal ting.. i like to live my life the way its supposed to be.. i do not smoke not becoz of tis reason, bud becoz i noe it harms my body n more imptly i noe tat if i do get started, its gona be very difficult for me to get myself out of it.. we r wad we tink we r.. there's no doubts abt tis statement.. yet sumtimes we arent even sure abt wad we r tinking.. i get the feeling i'm getting out of point bud yea.. tis is juz my tots..
rather tired.. the red cross tingy may get very long n i tink its best not to post it now.. probably will hav lots of typos n lots of tings will be edited away mentally coz i will be lazy to type tat much.. so maybe other time ba.. laaaaa..........................~~~~
seventeen days --> in the end, it doesnt even matter.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006 at 00:39
because you loved me
pretty long day.. morning wake up bathe den go cp liao. ate bk den take mrt to beach road.. bought the uniform cover, i'm rather confident i could hav got it at $2.10 at the shop i stopped at coz tats the one zy introduced me like 5yrs ago?? hahaha.. anw, after tat walked to bugis.. den not bad la, wear shorts n slippers.. den at times carry a big red plastic bag.. more like i gg market.. hahaha.. bud nvm.. tats me.. i dun giv a damn to such tings.. hahaha.. den went eat mos.. eat liao went home.. took mrt to cp den go the skcc coz px wan pay her bill.. den take lrt home den online awhile den went out again.. go gym at arnd 7.. den 8 went jog for 2 rnds at stadium den take bus go srgn find zy liao.. den tabao dinner den go his hse eat.. toked.. frm 9 plus till 11.. den walked to opp the swimming pool to take bus.. hoping i wont miss the last bus.. actually contemplated to walk home, since wearing sports attire sumore.. bud tot of how tired i was, i din bring keys, etc (aka. excuses) so decided to take bus.. den reached home wanted to go do situps.. bud den saw got ppl there alr plus etc etc (aka. u noe wad) so came home.. blah blah.. tired.. gg slp soon..
soon it'll be over. 18 days till the end. end of story, end of dream, end of evryting. pls make it a happy ending, thank you all.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006 at 17:42
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Sunday, November 05, 2006 at 23:44
there's a reason for evryting
wadeva i may choose to do, i do it for the best of evrybody.
hav no doubts abt my motive, for its evryone tat i tink for..
i dunoe if i will do wad i've decided to do, bud if i do, i'm sorry.
evryone tinks i'm jus saying it AGAIN, maybe i m, bud i dun tink i m..
for evry beginning, there's always an ending to look forth to.
maybe now is the time.
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Saturday, November 04, 2006 at 21:20
time for update
alrite.. ytd went sch in morning do fyp.. finish den had lessons.. den prac ended early.. n i tot it was gg to end at 6 plus.. anw i counted wrongly.. got 2 more pracs on fri after sch reopen.. which means i will hav to pon the last prac to go for the camp.. sheeshh... c how lor.. maybe try pon morning tat bioinfo lesson oso n make sure i present on either wed or thur.. haha.. c how la.. anw, by rite supposed to meet sec3s at cp.. bud since i so early so went nchs find them.. reached there joined alpha play captain ball for like 15 to 20 mins nia.. hahhaa.. den debrief n wait for them pack up.. chatted wif goldwin.. den went cp via 303 there.. coz wan do the route tingy.. den go cp eat n play chinese chess liao den left at arnd 9 to walk.. the actual plan was to leave by 730.. zzzz.. so walked till sheng siong there alr 10.. den got to tink of lots of tings to do on the way there, if not will probably be very boring.. den go there play abit more chinese chess den go home.. waited for hx bro come fetch her first den took cab.. dropped them off liao i reached home juz nice saw the finishing segment of survivor.. the part they show the voted out member toking to the camera.. hahaha.. wth.. nvm.. den bathed n online n slp...
today morning wake up do nad fyp tat ting.. till 1 den went cook n bath.. den eat liao go find qw they all.. frm 230 till 6 i leave liao.. tinking back on all my saturdays, i guess the saturdays now r spent more meaningfully.. pri sch the sat is always morning go soccer trng den go eat den go their hse play till evening den go home n tink of a lie.. hahhaa.. den sec sch is red cross till noon go eat den go yc hse.. oso till evening nite den go back n tink of another lie.. hahaha.. bud really teach qw n his frens if evry wk for 1yr i tink when i 25yrs old i no nid go brazil jungle alr.. my lungs alr kena cancer liao.. hahhaa.. whole afternn i keep sucking in cigarette smoke.. hahaa.. not tat i nv breath in b4.. bud now alr quite long time since my papa quit smoking.. so yea.. it no longer is as nice-smelling as it was.. hahhaa.. went buy epl den buy dinner n came home.. juz finished my blog the pic again.. tis time more pics le.. if u cant find ur pic inside, its probably we haven taken any photos b4 or those r not nice.. hahhaa.. nxt time make me take pic wif u k.. coz i seldom in the take-pic mood so nid ppl force one.. hahaa.. lata gg do more camp stuffs den dunoe do wad liao.. tml oso camp stuffs... den mon go do fyp afternn must go find qw they all again.. they tue chem.. den tue dunoe do wad.. hope mon can finish all the 60 pcrs den tue no nid go back.. den wed got the camp meeting.. den the rest dunoe how liao.. c how it goes...
anyway while walking frm nchs to cp ytd saw zy.. more like he saw me.. he call me so many times den i realised.. hahaha.. kinda shocked coz tot he was in malaysia.. den guess wad?? at nite while waiting for hx bro he saw us again.. tis time i nv c him la.. only juz now chatted wif him on msn den noe.. hahaha.. wth.. singapore proving to be super small.. hahaha.. anw his bday coming up.. yc if u gg the camp 2nd day break camp liao arrange go find him maybe eat dinner wif him n ml tgt k? tats if u gg the camp la.. if u not gg den find one wkend evening or nite meet him n ml eat liao i go ur hse or wad lor.. hahha.. let me noe how ba..
yet yet yet again, gg different directions.. heh heh.. i dunoe wad else to say.. i will try my best not to do wad i aint supposed to do k..
SMILE
Thursday, November 02, 2006 at 18:14
wad u r to me
had alot tat i wanted to blog about on the way home.. bud now all forget alr.. its always been tis case. hhaha.. anw, today morning really suay.. wake up abit late nia end up take same train as cla.. den at sengkang i saw her liao bud juz continue walking to the back.. den when reached outram she come n "ren" me.. kns.. end up oso so fake.. ala.. must be coz of the fyp tats y she like tat.. ha.. den break went eat wif them coz nid go find nas wif et after tat mah.. den eat finish i n et go lib there find nas giv him his 2 balls.. hahaaha.. no we din take his, we bought him 2 more.. lol... den last lesson is tcmd prac.. kns.. i go there sit there slp 1hr den go off liao.. hahaha.. tat cherie is really ass.. kena suck up until like tat.. heck her la.. tml gg early to do fyp.. den prac till 6 plus sia.. den gg cp eat den go walk to sheng siong wif dunoe who.. hahah.. now doing appimmune datasheet.. lata still must do cchemII one.. both tml due.. sian... lalalalala...
q: wad are ships made of?
a: trust. ie: frenship, relationship etc r all based on trust.
i judge my frenship wif my frens based on how comfortable i feel when arnd them... i used to feel very comfortable wif nas.. bud now after 1 sem plus of separation, the feeling is no longer the same.. i dun feel super comfortable even wif yuching or jeremy.. i dunoe y.. its juz like tat.. yet i felt so comfortable when i was wif u.. of coz now its no longer the same.. sumhow our frenship has changed.. perhaps u'r wondering juz wad do i c u as now.. i still c u as my fren.. no longer as close no doubt, bud u'r still up there wif nad, et n wx juz to name a few.. if tis ppl wan ask a favour frm me, i will help them.. same wif u.. if u ever nid someting frm me, juz let me noe.. it feels sad tat we r wad we r now.. i tot we were so alike in terms of tinking, etc.. yet i guess we will only remain as classmates + frens.. no good, no close, no nth.. juz frens.. oh well.. i dunoe abt u, bud u were indeed one of those tat i wouldnt mind knowing if i could choose who i would noe in poly.. same wif carol nas et n nad.. btw, i tink i've decided wad to giv u for ur present, would u wan it?
anway really appreciate my hp nowadays.. especially since its the only ting i hav to keep myself occupied while on the way to sch n back home, inbetween lessons, as well as while moving frm one place to another in sch.. at least i hav a reason not to c ppl tat i noe coz i wasnt paying attention.. at least i dun hav to tok rubbish wif ppl i hav nth to tok to.. oh well, it seems my charger is gg bonkers.. i can charge the whole nite n wake up its still 1 out of 3 bars nia..
pretty long post.. actually wanted to tok abt my 2006 new yr resolutions one.. bud nvm la.. so long liao.. maybe other day if i rmb den tok abt it.. hahaha.. gotta come up wif my 2007 ones soon.. hahhaa
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 at 22:52
early HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY NASIR!!!!!!
tml's nasir's bday! anyway, nasir is one frenly guy... perhaps my best and closest fren in poly... really appreciated his presence especially in yr2 sem2... so juz now went to vivocity after lessons to look for tings to buy for him.. coz morning told et (his jie) den she once again forgot abt it like last yr.. hahhaa.. den suggested buying him a small soccer ball n write wishes on it.. den go toyrus coz i tink tats the only suitable shop for ppl my class to go to.. hahaha.. finally ended up gg to addidas to buy a size5 soccer ball for him.. den et bought a small ball.. she decorate tml i juz sign den both giv him.. lalala.. den gg to share wif wh carol cyn for another present oso.. hahaha.. i guess he deserves my efforts ba.. life in sp would hav been alot more diff without him..
den went cp for meeting.. rather long.. now i tink abt 30% of the proposal is okie.. gotta rush.. camp is in 3wks time?? or 4? dunoe.. hahhaa.. anyway tis will be the last camp for me ba.. at least i can say i get to work wif 4 batches of ncos.. wad more tis batch was juz sec1 when i juz joined the unit.. hope tis camp would be a success... really wan it to be so.. k la.. pretty much wasting my time online.. gg slp soon.. tml 8 o'clock lessons.. blah... byebye
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