Jie deng ban zhu wo yan qian xia yi bu

La chang de ying zi chao long de hui gu

Dian hua ting reng liu zhe ni de hua

Yi ju hua diao yi di lei

Jin wan de wo hui shi ru he ru shui

*chorus*

Yuan lai zui teng tong de biao qing jing shi mei you qing xu

Yuan lai zui can ren de hua mian ke yi tian yan mi yu

Wo bu dong de ru he geng ai ni

Ying zi feng ci de gen zhe wo nan fen nan li

Yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na ma xiang ni

Yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji

Ni shou de gan jing

Wo ye hui bu liu yi dian hen ji

*chorus*

Shuo gu shi ye yao xiang shi zhen di

Ke shi bie chu dong na xie hui yi

Jin ye ni shuo le zui hou yi ju

Yi ju hua diao yi di lei

Kan lai jin wan de wo hen nan ru shui

repeat *chorus*

at 17:54
for those tat din noe,

i almost took up malay as my mother tongue in sec sch, only to be objected by my parents.. ahhaha.. coz i hated chinese back then n i was always wif malay frens frm the soccer team in pri sch.. maybe i would become a muslim in the future.. haha.. i dunoe, bud nevertheless, Hari Raya Puasa to all Muslims out there!

alrite, i'm tired rite now, bud i'm got to do the tcmd assignment n goh's assignment.. den still must study for lmbs quiz, bud most prob tml den study liao.. zzzz....

keep walking - Jonnie Walker
ala - Chun Leong
wo hen xiang ai ni

at 06:23
off to bed

alrite, playing fm since juz now till now.. now gg to slp.. tink till 10 plus.. bud i'm still as confused.. hai.......

at 01:16
wads confusier den confused?

great.. i tot i would go to bed feeling clearer last nite.. rite now i guess i will go to bed (if i do lata) feeling MUCH MUCH more confused... hai.. both in sch n outside sch, i'm so confused.. hai.. it could hav been left as it was, maybe i would be able to convinced myself to accept tat, bud it wasnt to be.. so how? i oso dunoe.. heh~... dunoe dunoe dunoe.....

lets tok abt wad i did today instead.. morning go out wif papa mama go srgn eat kway chap again.. at old hse there.. den papa drive to payalebar mrt i take to sch.. go do pcr den go lesson.. lessons end came yc hse.. play 3 4 matches den go eat.. came back play again.. den juz now he recreated his blog coz the prev one kok up.. den now he slping i playing FM07!!! as well as use the com.. yawns... tml tink wake up play till go eat lunch den go home liao.. got lots to do as well as thur got quiz.. hai... dun feel like haha-ing today coz i'm all confused n tired... zzz.z.z.z.z.. byebye

Sunday, October 22, 2006 at 23:08
confused

i woke up feeling confused.. guess i'll be gg to bed much clearer of the situation.

taught qw they all in late morning to evening.. went hougang stadium jog den go jere hse eat n watch manu liverpool.. now must hope reading draw or beat arsenal den win money.. haha.. tml gg yc hse after sch.. tue dunoe doing wad.. maybe gg out watch movie wif yc.. hai.. anyway, tis coming fri nite got SURVIVOR!!! hehe. okie. nth else.. feeling pretty down enuf alr.. HUR. bye

Saturday, October 21, 2006 at 16:07
omg

hai.. juz found out it will cost abt 5k for the air tix for my parents plus my meimei to go france nxt june.. hahhaa.. of coz they dunoe.. i tinking only.. june holz if clash wif my sis the summer vacation den let the 3 of them go coz since by then my bro n i shld be in army alr.. den ala.. 5k.. go where find.. work oso nid work alot of mths la.. sumore go there they oso nid spend $.. gone.. must start replanning again.. hahaha.. hav to ask my sis when her vacations n whether she coming back not.. if coming back den make it such tat they go ova for abt 1wk den come back wif my sis.. ala.. early stages of planning.. lets hope i dun forgot abt tis plan.. hahaha.. happy bday peiyi.. n u all shld stop buying so big the cakes.. hahaha

at 09:23
it all went wrong.

when the moment u step into tat place, all u feel is sian-ness n redundant-ness, u juz noe its time to let go. no longer a sir, no longer part of it, gotta stop going. frm the moment i stepped in till i went home, seriously the mood disappeared. on a brighter note, FM06/07 is out!! seems really interesting.. hai.. 59.90.. gg to add tat to my wishlist.. hahaha.. its juz a wish, which like a dream, nv comes true.. hahaha.. so much for brighter note..

so i changed my skin.. actually wanted use same one as my meimei one.. bud saw tis n tot rather cute so used it.. hahaha.. its blue!! yellow was my fav colour in pri sch.. blue n orange were nxt in sec sch.. now? i hav no colour preference.. thou my msn font is pink.. hahaha..

had my blood drawn 3 times ytd.. our grp all kok.. total draw 5 or 6 times all no blood.. den woo take mine.. frm the inside vein! wah pain! blah.. sch sux..

today alot of paragraphings.. juz feel like being orderly n separate different tings.. ala.. sian.. lata dunoe gg cp find them not.. they gg celebrate peiyi bday.. it was supposed to be ytd.. tats y i went down.. end up changed to today.. wth.. c how la.. very sian alr..

thur, got to find out tat maybe i assumed wrongly.. bud wad can i do when all i hav is ur msn contact n ur frenster?? i do not hav ur blog.. i do not noe wad u tinking.. nvm.. maybe its too late now, no matter how we try we'll nv get back to be as close as b4.. u can still look for me if u nid help.. i wont turn u down.. not b4, not now, not in the future.. i guess tats all..

last but not least, there's a wall.. fine, i built it there.. hahaa.. bud i guess only u can break the wall.. n all i can do is stand at the other end of the wall n wait.. coz i will not do to others wad i dun wan others to do to me.. n so i shall make no move, say nth to u, n remain indifferent.. i hope u dun noe tat tis is for u, bud if u do, i hope u understand, i hav my reasons..

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 at 23:31
you think everyday Sunday ar?

the above phrase is used on others who happened to do someting rite accidently n after which tries to do it the same way bud fails. originated frm myc again.. hahaha.

zhi dui ni suo
ai cuo
wo hen xiang ai ta
bai se feng che
xin yu
yuan lai
kiss goodbye

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 at 18:35
i noe i said no more, but...

okie.. i noe there was supposed to b no more such tings, but.. ur sms surprised me more den shocked me.. n no, i wasnt threatening u.. i juz wan u to noe tat wadeva i said, was the truth.. trust takes time to build up bud is easily destroyed.. we were once the best of frens, or so i tot, n den u decided to do wadeva u did.. now u wan me to take ur word n quit sch, pay back tat 1k n come back nxt yr? n wad? find tat u didnt meant wad u said n u were juz testing? i would love to take ur words for it bud i hope u understand i hav my plans, my plans affect others, n by changing my plans, i nid more den juz tat few words to be sure.. if wadeva happened didnt happen, maybe i would hav not b tis wary, bud tings happens n circumstances changes. we arent wad we were once.. i dunoe even noe m i still ur fren or juz another classmate, tats y i sounded rather formal when smsing.. hai.. i nid to noe y, bud i noe u wont tell me, so there's no point in tinking too much abt tis whole matter. let's juz finish tis sem n c where we go beyond tat.. goodbye.

at 00:34
the more we walk, the further apart we become.

i noe where i stand.
i noe where u stand.
the more we walk,
the further apart we become.
our lives lead to different ways.
how i wish it was otherwise,
yet there's nth i can do.
i hope to c the smile tat belonged on ur face to be there once more.
u noe i really do.

Sunday, October 15, 2006 at 20:13
in love wif u

alrite... very busy wkend.. fri play bball den sat went gym in morning... after tat go out to partyworld sing song.. wif lt yy jeremy rena den plus cf, mw, les n their gfs.. not bad.. 4hrs i sang 1 song nia.. hahaha.. okie dun luff.. coz i usually dun sing one.. my sing song career so far sang twice b4 nia.. once is xiao wei coz they forced me to.. den tat day is i very sian so go c got wad songs den chose yuan lai end up they make me sing it.. den whole mv i nv c only keep looking at the chi words coz dunoe how to read.. hahaha.. sad.. paid $15 sumore.. okie.. after tat went cine the foodcourt eat dinner den go balcony.. ordered ice mocha.. n my drink was the best among those we ordered.. hahaha.. sit there watch manu match.. very hot, no aircon.. den finished walked to dhoby ghaut take nel go jere hse.. den tat guy send lt n rena home first end up i go his hse alone first.. jokes.. den watched more epl den slp.. today wake up at 8 to go play soccer.. 2nd time eva tat we playing in morning.. hahaha.. not bad la.. end up alot of ppl there.. very crowded.. sumore very humid.. bud at least we played. bud majority of the time i only goalie.. very sian.. haha.. finished at 1230 go mac drink n tok abit den come home liao.. came home bath only den must go down teach qw weeleong n lei maths.. teached frm 3 till 7.. ass pain.. bud maths really makes me alive.. so alert when i teaching them.. haha.. now juz ate.. tink gg play fm till dunoe when den slp.. tml gg to go at 12 like tat do fyp ba.. lessons at 2.. till 5.. den must go jiawen hse.. die sia.. i dun even noe how to go.. n i tink i will forget i hav to go.. hahhaa.. tats all la.. happy bday to evryone who's bday is nowadays.. to list them, seng, cyn, carol, lt, jw, julian.. so many sia.. bud one ting very standard, all no presents.. ahhahaa.. tats all la.. go play fm liao..

once again tml is monday. once again i hav to come back to the realities tat i'm gg thru in sch evry wk. its so fcking depressing. hai. maybe tats the reason y nowadays my wkends r always rather packed as compared to last time. maybe i'm juz escaping frm wad is happening in sch. i cant stand it n it sucks. bud yet i cant do anyting abt it. no frens, no frens. GONE.

Friday, October 13, 2006 at 20:31
~~~

finally the poll reached 10.. haha.. juz realised 30 is actually quite high.. hahaha.. coz maybe the most oso 10 plus ppl come my blog nia.. so reached 15 den i will collate the results alr.. tink qw haven come n c yet.. if not he sure at my tagboard complain one.. hahha

so today woke up bath only den go out liao.. stil tot they will late tats y i slowly den sumore bring nail cutter wan go cut when waiting.. end up they reached b4 me.. hahaha.. last time 4 ppl today 6 ppl.. not bad la.. slowly improving.. hahha.. bud today played less den the prev time.. den sumore halfway the chester they all run out of sch play at the other court.. very hiong they all, pon sch den play at an area where the whole sch can c.. tink quite alot of the tchers saw them ba.. hahha.. play slack play slack den went ym hse help him do his internet tingy.. end up stil cant coz the com cant recognise his usb port den i dunoe how to install its driver so nv do.. den went cp eat.. eat alr go cold storage walk arnd.. den ova there jamie buy her lemon for dunoe y den walk one rnd den chaoed.. den go up the kiddy palace.. den saw the speaker toy.. actually is nice.. bud when lindar say she wan den i tot not nice alr.. hahaha.. no la, bud i tot the chipmons one was cute.. haha.. den she wanted the eeyore one.. bud nv buy coz she cant decide n no money.. den go up 4th floor saw chester again.. den went lib.. made jamie n lindar borrow the kite runner each.. u 2 the task is to write a book review by 3rd nov.. hahaha.. den kw went buy the speaker while we frm comic connection walk to lib.. i him n chester was outside comic connections den we came up wif a plan.. den i lend him money, den chester ask him he nid his speed not.. hahaha.. den end up we say he go toilet.. den tat lindar very interesting.. walking to lib tat time go the toilet there den say she wan look for him.. hahha.. bud she din found out till kw came back wif tat speaker.. haha.. they used my card borrowed 4 bks.. u all beta return on time.. i owe lib $1.80 alr.. hahaha.. den frm lib walk to go home liao.. oh.. forgot we played arcade b4 gg the kiddy palace.. the spot the diff screen got problem one sia.. hahhaa.. end up we keep press bud they minus the time.. total we spent $10 there.. mad ppl.. 10 bucks can do alot of other tings for a longer time u noe.. oh well.. it was a good day i guess.. firstly wan thank hx again for organising n oso coming.. u'r probably feeling rather unhappy bud hope the bball helped to a certain extent.. nxt is to alina, can c u oso neither here nor there, well, wad i would suggest is to concentrate on rc first la.. hahaha.. no la not so selfish.. lol.. bud oh well, u can always hav the option of using tis end of yr holz to perhaps find out wad it is tat u wan n make tat decision nxt yr.. afterall, ming tian (nian) hui gen hao.. hahaha.. nxt to kw, i really pity u tat u nxt time the house design.. haha.. one room library nvm.. another room is garden to plant veggies.. den still must giv one room to eeyores.. hahhaa.. work hard n earn more money ah..

so now still can roughly rmb i shall post the bets wif kw n qw here for all to be witness..

kw first, a total of 3 bets.
first, if ur chi get A1/A2, u will NO LONGER owe me the $50 tat u still owe me for ur june paper. bud if u fail to get A1/A2, u will owe me $50 nia.. i very kind nv count it as $100 so u beta dun xia suay.. haha
second, if u pass all ur subjects and get B4 or beta for english, i owe u $100.. bud if u fail to do so for even 1 subject, u will juz hav to owe me another $50.. hahhaa
lastly, if ur L1B4 get 15 or below, i will owe u $200.. bud if u fail to obtain it u will hav to owe me another $50..
so fair enuf? if so pls tag n say tat u agree.. hahahha.. nope, there's no fine prints to trick ur money..

qw is up nxt..
first, if u pass all ur subjects, i will owe u $100.. english no nid b4 la.. all pass can alr.. haha.. if u fail to do so u juz hav to owe me $40.. y lower den kw? coz his probability of not achieving higher..
second, if ur chi get A1/A2, u will no longer owe me tat $50 n instead i will owe u $50.. if nv get u will owe me $100.. hahhaa.. y he get $50 kw juz get to balance out? coz i believe tis might be the only one he has a chance of winning.. so must motivate him more.. hahaha..
lastly, for ur L1B4, let u hav till 23.. 23 nice number.. beckham number.. so if ur L1B4 get 23 or below, i will owe u $100.. bud if nv means u will owe me $60..
so urs shld be rather tempting eh.. hahhaa.. same as kw, let me noe if u agree on my tagboard.. n do go take a look at the polls abt u when u come the nxt time.. hahaha

Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 23:35
tired. or rather, worn out.

first ting.. ppl, after u click my hamtaro pic u will c a blue colour rectangular poll.. plus go ahead n poll it even if u dunoe who is qw.. juz choose either the first or second option will do.. hahaha.. now only got 5, i really sian diao.. hahaha.. most prob nxt time will change other poll qns.. bud let tis one reach 30 first la.. anw i alr came up wif the plan if majority chooses yes, so juz faster hit 30 n i'll inform him.. hahaha..

okie.. sch today was juz a repeat of 15mths ago.. nth much to say abt it.. it was juz anger, hot, hot, anger, anger, hot, hot, anger n .... so yea, sumhow i din blew up. bud i tink the message was pretty clear for all to read alr.. so yea.. fck it.. i'm sick n tired n worn out wif tis ting.. n guess wad? week 3 is juz about to end.. ~heh~

after sch did fyp ALONE.. oh well, i mean wad else were u all expecting?? sum ppl tinks its more impt learning how to write one's resume den wadeva she's gona hav on her transcript.. tml whole day no lessons best time for her to catch up n complete wadeva pcr tat i've done n she's not ran, guess wad?? she tinks its tiring to go to sch.. oh fck it u noe.. last time holz kip no results u demoralised sian dun wan go i nvm.. now leh?? kns.. dun blame me when evryting is not done on time.. i'm pretty much 35% off fyp alr..

so did fyp till 5 plus den went fc4 eat.. tat fcking china man, giv so little.. mite as well dun eat sia.. waste my money.. den took train dunoe where to go.. wanted to go ecp.. bud ala, so far away frm my hse den go home very mafan.. so end up choose between srgn n sengkang.. sengkang is really nth to walk one so went srgn.. reached srgn den found out srgn got no where to relax one.. so walk to st gabs.. walked one rnd arnd the sch, looking at the current structure of the buidlings.. trying to recall wadeva i could of wad it used to be, n oso tink of wadeva little memories i hav of the new surroundings.. walk finish nowhere to go so juz started to walk home.. den reach stadium there saw got floodlights on.. there was a soccer match so i went watch frm the carpark tat side first.. watched till half time i walked over to enter the stadium to sit down n watch.. anyway, it was not even a S league match.. probably juz a frenly between two groups of ppl who dun even noe each other.. hahaha.. bud well, had nth to do so watch lor.. afterall today's outing was canceled coz nas not free den carol's dad in hosp.. end up left we 3.. so change to other days.. apparently i'm supposed to wish carol's dad a speedy recovery at tis point coz tis is wad i've learnt frm observing wad ppl does at all kinds of situations.. bud deep down, yea, i do wish him all the best yea.. i 630 like tat walk st gabs.. den at stadium frm 7 sumting 8 like tat watched till 910 den leave.. hahaha.. took bus home coz rather late n tired liao.. den now hav to do the fcking fyp report so tat i can send to sum ass n she can edit n send it to woo.. seriously i believe its more of me editing her work den she editing mine.. sorry if i'm arrogant bud since sec1, i've been labeled as a proud person.. i noe myself, i cant n i wont accept critisms of me or my works unless its frm sumone i truthfully respect n recognise as sumone beta den me.. so yea, she's not even worth my respect so as to speak..

its no fun keeping all tis to myself.. how i wished i could let the whole class noe wad is happening n wad i noe n wad i feel.. bud i'm not becoz i'm simply not interested at all in having a war wif tat 2 pieces of shit publicly.. wad more involve the class n make them take sides, or maybe becoz i noe when they hav to take side, i'll probably hav no more den like 2 or 3 souls over wif me eh.. HAHA. tats for myself, jus laughing at myself becoz i noe i deserve it for being wad i m..

no more energy to go on, gotta go do tat fcking report as well.. still hav to slp n wake up early tml to play bball.. seriously i tink its gona b koked-up again.. oh well... gotta go, gotta keep walking, - Jonnie Walker.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006 at 23:50
somehow i'm back

okie.. took tis frm yuching's blog..

Nothing will last forever, whereby No one is indispensable.
first point agreed. second point yet to understand. hahaha..

oh well, maybe its indeed time u start treasuring money u noe? eva since i've known u, i've very seldom c money being kept in the wallet rather den out of the wallet.. of coz i noe i contributed to alot of those gg out towards mr mcdonalds n his associates.. for tat i apologise.. u noe sumtimes i tink back to a particular nite at chuan park.. the nite tat i doubt u even knew tat it happened. i guess u snapped. u, well, went crazy.. it was probably when u were still in sec3, i've forgotten.. hai, i noe i've nv mentioned it to u b4.. coz i guess u probably didnt even knew u snapped.. i guess there comes a point where no matter how strong a person is to others, they cant take it anymore.. u r as human as anyone else on tis world.. u hav to learn to let it go u noe.. do wadeva u can still do b4 its too late.. u'r only 21, u hav many yrs more to go u noe.. if u cant find anyone who wans to listen to u grumble, tok to tat horse tat u bought frm ikea.. okie, not a very good idea.. bud u can always find anyone u feel comfortable toking to wif.. i believe u've had many more frens den i've had.. surely there's a handful tat u will be able to be at ease wif.. u noe tat if u'r eva feeling lonely n hav nth to do, u juz hav to call/sms me to fix a date n time n we can play winning eleven... if u wan to go sumwhere n hav noone to go wif, u can always ask me.. i'm much lonelier den u r u noe.. as much as ur dad was ur source of inspiration, u had been n will always be my source of motivation.. where's the yuching tat i knew of who would damn fcking care all about his appearance?? its time to find back wads been gone frm ur life. if its not now, when else will it be? take a break.. go off to some beach (i'll suggest ECP on a wkday) alone. look at the sea n tink back frm the day ur life broke apart, rite up till now. do wad u hav to do to get it back on track. if there's anybody in tis world tat can do it, it'll got to be u. for u r probably the most determined person i've eva come across in my life. do it for ur dad, ur mum, ur sis, urself, ur frens, ur many many juniors n cadets who looks up to u as thou u'r the god.. n rmb wad u've always taught me, "u wan to do it, u do it till the very best." u can! as long as u tink u can. therefore i here would like to wish u all the best in finding back wadeva u've lost. jiayou.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006 at 20:36

argh....... sicked... will b missing for sum time.. bye!

Monday, October 09, 2006 at 20:18
morons part I

tok abit abt wad happened today first.. juz now when walking frm t11a go t6 for lesson et n cla was toking abt the cls add.. den et ask me to go oso.. say last yr alr.. y dun go.. ala.. sorry bud if i wan go i obviously go wif ppl i considered my frens.. one table seat 10 ppl.. of tat 10 probably 8 gg to b u all the yr1 clique.. i go there fill up the seats for wad?? act cute isit? i nw in class keep sit wif them alr feel like retarded still wan make myself dress like retard (the theme is retro) n go there n be retard?? nah.. tats not me.. haha.. sumore 1 person $58.. tats 3 times retarded.. wad for.. spend my lovely nite at home rotting oso beta.. sooner or lata breaks they will oso ask me n cla to follow.. den once tat happen, sooner or lata i will go mia during breaks n hide in my fav toilet.. whole holz almost evryday go back sch do fyp oso got go shit in tat toilet.. hahhaa.. den juz now go lib print the ns tingy den go home.. well, at least i get to hav sum peace when gg home.. tml morning not meeting cla.. i gg early to do pcr first coz taq arrive alr.. she's a mf.. tink got alot of time.. i tml do liao den wed doing oso thur got time oso doing den she wan fri den run the gels... kns.. wed go where?? obviously go wif "her frens".. go do wad? go for retarded toks to get CCA points.. yuan lai her CCA points more impt den fyp grade.. icic.. enjoy urself ah.. fyp get C or D dun come complain abt my commitment.. holz u go here go there 1wk go missing i nv say anyting.. tat day u run gel i got no pcr to do i go off first only buay song.. now like tat sumore.. wan complain? fck u.. k la.. enuf.. gg to elaborate on my title..

tis ting abt morons i will try to tok abt it in my posts.. another series tingy.. hahaa.. gimmicks to keep my visitors coming.. hahhaa.. today's morons will be those who stand at the lrt platform at sengkang lrt station there.. stand where?? obviously stand at those "tart lor" (block way) places.. for those who noe how the west loop goes, after 3pm is u go up escalator turn left.. den u walk over to the platform to wait there.. will always hav lots of morons standing at the very behind of the yellow line.. tats to say almost on the yellow line.. den there will be others standing behind them.. end up the whole path is congested n evryone stuck at the escalator come up tat part.. bloody retards.. stand till so front for wad?? so tat they can enter the lrt first.. these morons.. if they pregnant/old/wif children i still can undstnd coz they wan get a seat in the train.. these bloody well-dressed collared-shirt ppl r in their thirties n fourties, look perfectly abled-bodied so wtf they rushing for seats for?? its not tat their lrt ride will take 30mins.. for east loop the max oso 10 to 15mins complete one rnd liao.. their legs weak till stand tat 10mins will die?? do they suffer frm acute standing disorder (stand awhile got problem)?? therefore i encourage all my readers who come across such morons nxt time to walk pass them n juz say out loud the word "moron" n look at them.. once evryone starts doing tis, we'll hav a much beta platform to walk on.. tats all for morons part I.. juz to make u ppl interested, morons part II may hav sumting to do wif Mr B**h n Mr B***r.. u noe? tat 2 big countries u noe who.. one retiring soon one.. gg to tok abt them n oso about how the world needs a little more goodwill to be a better place to live in.. n of coz i'll oso discuss y they deserve to be in prisons much more den those whom they've placed in there.. of coz tis is only possible if i dun forget abt wad i wan to say abt them la.. hahaha.. so stay tuned ppl..

anyway juz now on the way home i was tinking.. my checkup date is 27th dec.. den after tat cant be so fast go bmt wad.. sumore tis yr the jc is dragon batch so shld hav alot.. so most prob poly ppl will go in later.. so when my exams end in feb, i'll go find a part time job n work.. earn money.. hopefully in wadeva amount of time tat i hav till bmt i can earn (tat is after subtracting meals n transport) at least 2k.. den use tis money n find more frm siblings if not enuf to buy air tix for my parents to go france to look for my sis.. i guess they deserve tis trip since it has always been them for us frm young till now.. now tat i can earn money, i guess i shld start repaying them back.. afterall when i n my bro both in army the money we can giv them oso not alot.. thou they will save alot on electricity bills. hahaha.. bud ala, they r my parents.. n i believe tat family is the most impt ting in the world.. frens can be choosen, family cant.. frens lost alr can make new ones, family lost alr means foreva gone.. therefore no matter how distant i m frm my family, they will always be my priority.. of coz i must say i'm most fortunate to hav a pair of good parents.. i noe sum whom may not hav the most ideal parents.. i'm sorry tat i cant say wad i've said can be applied to them as well.. coz i do not undstnd wad it is to be in their situations.. bud nevertheless there'll nv b a lack of love in tis world for evryone.. u all juz hav to look harder than others i believe.. so anyone wana make any donations to the ALA fund to fund the air tix?? cash n credit donations r all accepted.. hahaha.. oh well, pretty much of tots in tis post alr.. anyone up for the alphaberts tingy?? hahaha.. STOP YAWNING!!! n the others STOP CHEERING!! juz pay attention n read wad i hav to say.. hahaha

kns.. there's a total of 19 'J's... ala.. spilt into 2 grps.. today do first 9/10.. hahaha.. other day den continue.. here goes:

Jaisilan - tis guy was my sec sch classmate for sec3 n 4.. very fit.. run very fast.. den soccer oso not bad.. his anticipation n workrate very high.. can be singapore's nxt subramani.. hahaha.. very nice guy.. asst head prefect sumore. hahaha.. sumtimes abit corrupted la.. lol.. very nice guy.. i like.. hahaha. juz kidding.. i aint gay.. haha

Jamie L** - nchsrcy junior.. very loud n noisy duck.. at times very hyper.. like to sia suay me in public.. hahah.. at times very emotional.. when she sec1 i go observe her batch during training she n lindar r the firsts to attract my attention.. not coz pretty, bud coz very noisy n to a certain extent, enthu.. hahaha.. over the years she's shown to be committed to the cca, probably the most?? bud definately not too good at handling of the pressures tat all ncos-to-be had to endure.. tats probably y she's not holding a very very high post.. of coz i had no hand in their postings.. bud if i was to decide, i would hav put her sumwhere higher, not becoz she's tat good n her peers arent, its juz tat i believe her commitment shld be rewarded.. coz when i was the best in my batch n the most commited in my batch when i was sec3, being told tat i would not get the highest post was definately not a very well-digested news to me.. of coz now tat i'm old n alr over it, i hav no qualms abt not being the chair.. bud i do noe tat for a fifteen yr old, tat might not be tat easy a pill to swallow..

Jasmine Y** - nope, its not the actress/dj.. its another nchsrcy junior.. hahaha.. anway she has a rather stubborn character.. or maybe stubborn is not an appropriate word.. bud cant tink of one now.. hahaha.. bud she has a rather deep hatred for ycs.. oh well, maybe its the way he works or sumting.. bud sumtimes its not rite for ncos to show their displeasure towards other instructors in front of ur cadets.. there r times i oso dun agree wif his style of working.. bud ting i'm certain is tat wadeva he chooses to do, i noe tat its for the best of the cadets.. tats his style, if its for the best of the cadets, nvm if others will not like him, he will do it.. so yea.. as u grow n if u remain in rcy u'll come to understand his point of view sumday..

Jean A** - was my gems classmate.. den she oso got go cls club den now is ben's gf.. did the gems project wif her colin n slyvia.. oh well.. i tink i got B or C for tat gems nia.. hahaha.. nth much..

Jeremy L** - the first of three jeremys.. hahhaa.. tis one is pri sch classmate.. p dunoe wad till p6.. he was my 'brother'.. coz both oso botak n rather fat (only since p5 for me).. hahaha.. den when we p6 both oso stayed back after sch to be the buddy for our own p1 siblings.. (u all noe of the buddy system??).. den their recess always together lor.. haha.. now oso lost contact liao.. long time nv c him alr.. hope he's not thinner than me now.. coz evryone i knew tat was fatter than me r now thinner den me.. *SOBS*.. hahaha..

Jeremy T** - tis one is sec sch classmate.. upper sec only.. den he is wif the breakdance ppl one.. scout de.. rather pleasant fellow.. nth much oso..

Jeremy W*** - tis is the one the name keep appearing one.. sec1 to sec4 classmate n good frens.. lower sec is the 4 heavenly kings den upper sec is f4.. both groups only i n him both hav.. hahaha.. basically sec 1 to sec 4 almost whole sch life wif him.. other den the times i go rc.. early morning go class copy hmwk till 7 sharp den go down canteen.. sumtimes got eat bud mostly is juz sit there tok kok wif the others den wait for the music to start playing.. tat music is a very nice music.. bud dunoe wad title so nv found.. anway, the cat living opposite my sch now still got the music not?? u find one wkday morning nv go sch one listen at 7.25 den let me noe k.. hahhaa.. back to our days at sec sch.. recess will go down buy the vegetarian stall beehoon most of the time den faster eat finish go play soccer liao.. after sch is play soccer either in sch when we still had field or go pl/bh to play.. pl is the plmgss there, at lorong ah su there.. now seldom go coz out of the way for sum of us.. den bh is the bradell heights cc.. beside the srgn police station nia.. still rmb tat when O levels prelims we 2 always in class chiong amaths paper of other schs den no matter wad lesson as long as we no interest one we juz chiong... den end up influenced alot of other ppl to chiong wif us.. hahaha.. mw frm c6 become b3 for prelims i tink.. den mengyeow failed his prelims amaths.. end up he join us chiong oso tink his actual one passed.. hahaha.. oh well.. those were the days.. n basically after maths exams come out if ur answer different frm jeremy's n mine means u got a 90% chance of wrong.. hahaha.. we were the answer scripts.. haha.. okie, tat was abit arrogant.. hahaha.. he in jc tat time drifted quite apart.. den now he in police evry wkend very free so go gym or play soccer.. den sometimes bet soccer tgt oso.. bud i've retired yet again (3rd time n counting).. hahaha.. probably the best fren i'v eva had.. best is not = to closest.. hahaha..

Jerry Y** - oh well.. tis will be the last for today.. damn long alr.. hahaha.. anway tis guy is frm my sec sch.. classmates only in upper sec chi lessons.. coz chi lessons they put us into diff classes acc to our scores.. den sec2 end my chi score was able to put me in the 2nd class.. hahaha.. bud i noe n i believe i was the worst in tat class la.. hahaha.. tis guy oso play soccer wif us one.. rmb we sec3 i tink chalet tat time play truth or dare.. den he said out quite alot of private tings.. hahaha.. nice bloke.. i guess tats all.. sayonara ppl..

Sunday, October 08, 2006 at 16:29
Hong Mo Fang | Popular Imitation

Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

Ci: Zhou Jie Lun
Lyrics: Jay Chou

Translation: Ling - www.jay-chou.net
------------------------------------------------------------------------

Zhong guo feng de ge qu you zeng wu jian
Chinese style music is increasing and not decreasing

Shi hao shi huai wen fang wen shan zui qing chu
Whether it's good or bad ask Vincent Fang, (he) knows it best

Cong niang zi chang dao shuang jie gun dong feng puo dao fa ru xue
Singing from Wife to Nunchucks East Wind Breaks to Hair Like Snow

Yi lu zou lai shi zhong ru yi duo yang de qu feng du ai zhong guo feng
Stayed the same the whole road down (In the) various types of musical styles (I) only like Chinese style

Wo jian chi feng ge wo huo zai wo de shi jie
I insist on my style I live in my world

Shui dou cha bu shang zui chang fan diao shi wo de ben xing
Nobody can say anything (about it) Being the devil's advocate is my true self

Chu qi bu yi shi wo de ge xing jiu suan wo zhan zai shan ding
(Being) unpredictable is my personality even if I stand at the top of the mountain

Ye zhi bu guo shi ge ping min lao bai xing
(I'm) just a normal civilian

Dan wo de jian bang hui you liang kuai kong di
But my shoulders will have two empty spots

Na jiu shi yong qi yu yi li wo yao zuo yin yue shang de huang di
That is courage and perseverance I want to be the emperor of music

Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi
Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi
Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi
Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi

Xia puo de lu bu fei gong fu bei ren yi jing bang ni pu lu
The path downhill requires no effort others have already paved the road for you

Dan wo xuan ze shang po yin wei wo qu ming jiao zi fu
But I choose (to go) uphill Because I name myself Self-confident

Qian xu han na xu wei jiu cha yi ge zi
There is only a one word difference between modesty and hypocrisy

You shi you dian fen bu qing yin wei wo xi huan zhen shi de zi ji
Sometimes I can't really tell the difference because I really like my true self

*
wo bu neng gou hou tui yin wei bu shi lu ye
I can't back up because I'm not a green leaf

Ru guo zhi shi dian zhui yuan dang jiao jie ming yue
If (I'm) just an extra ornament (I) wish to be the pure moon

Xiao cao deng dai feng chui bu yong kao ni de bei
The small grass is waiting for the wind to blow Don't need to lean on your back　

Jia ru tian hui hen hei wo hui qing chang e ben yue
If the sky will get really dark I will ask the Moon Lady to fly to the moon

Wei she me xie zhe shou ge wo xian zai hai zhao bu dao dong ji
Why did I write this song I still haven't found the reason

Bu guo yong xin ting xia qu ni hui jue de geng you yi yi
But listen carefully you will see the underlying meaning

Ru guo ni dui wei lai chan sheng kong ju yan qian wu meng meng yi pian
If you are afraid of the future and can't see clearly

Na shi yin wei ni mei ba yan jing gei ca gan jing
That's because you didn't clean your glasses well enough

Yong gan zou xia qu zhe shou ge hui pei ni qian jing
Continue moving on bravely This song will accompany you forward

Wo chang chang zai xiang yu zhou zhi you yi ke tai yang
I often think there is only one sun in the universe

Wei she me wo de ying zi zhe me duo zhe me xiang
Why do I have so many shadows that look alike

Zhan sheng huan xiang he wo yi yang xi huan mo fang de peng you men
Beat the mirage just like me friends that like to imitate

Chong bai shi jian hao shi xin shang shi zhong mei de
Idolization is a good thing Appreciation is a virtue

Dan zou zai wo hou mian wo hen dan xin bie ren hui kan bu jian ni
But walking behind me I'm really worried (that) others won't see you

Dao zui hou zhi shi yi ge jie yi ge de fen shen
At the very end, there are countless replicas

Zhe yang de gu li shi fou tai zhi jie tai feng ci
Is this type of encouragement too straightforward and too ironic?

Lao shi zai jiang dao di you mei you zai ting a
Are you listening when the teacher is talking?

Wo gao su ni zuo zi ji sheng yu gen tai jing
Let me tell you being yourself is better than following too close

Zui da de di ren jiu shi na nei xin de zi ji
The biggest enemy is your inner self

REPEAT*

ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o hey
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o hey

at 16:18
Xin Yu | Heart's Rain

Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

Ci: Fang Wen Shan
Lyrics: Vincent Fang

Translation: laruku - www.jay-chou.net
---------------------------------------------------------------------------

Xiang shu de lv ye a bai se de zhu li ba
The green oak leaf and the white bamboo fence

Hao xiang gao su wo de ta zhe li xiang fu hua
I wish I could tell her how picturesque it is here

Qu nian de sheng dan ka jing zi li de hu zha
I look at the Christmas card last year and then at my stubble in the mirror

Hua mian kai shi mei you ta wo hai zai zhuang sha
She is fading from the picture yet I continue to feign ignorance

Shuo hao wei wo pao hua cha xue xi bai dao cha
She promised to make me tea and learn to set the table

Xue sheng su se kong dang dang de jia
But the students' hostel remains just an empty empty home

Shou zhe dian hua que deng bu dao ta*
The phone always by my side yet nary a call from her*

xin li de yu qing pen er xia Ye zhan bu shi ta de fa#
There's a rainstorm in my heart yet her hair will be forever dry#

Lei yun kai ming xin pian shang de qian gua Na shang xin yuan lai mei you shi cha
As tears smudge words of concern in the postcard I realize sorrow knows no difference in time

xin li de yu qing pen er xia Que shi zhong lin bu dao ta
There's a rainstorm in my heart yet the raindrops will never reach her

Han feng jing guo yuan zhi li de zhi ya Ye leng que le wo shou zhong de xian hua^
The cold wind passes by the garden and froze the flowers in my hands^

REPEAT * # ^

at 11:33
exhaustion

okie.. copied the title frm nasir.. hahha.. bud yea i'm exhausted too.. lets c.. fri after sch go yc hse play winning eleven.. tat sucker.. lite spoil nv say earlier.. end up dark alr we wan on lite den he rmb.. hahaha.. end up cant fix so play in the dark.. den play till 1 plus he go slp alr.. sucker.. so end up i arnd 2 plus slp liao.. den morning 9 wake up den play awhile more go liao.. coz nid go home buy lunch for siblings.. den go JP eat wif yc.. den he go buy lots of rubbish to try DIY fix his lite.. den end up all nv use one la.. haha.. den he go cut hair i go home.. home bath n shit liao den go down teach qw n wl chemistry.. teach till 5 den go gym.. gym finish go bh play soccer.. full of activities.. soccer starting play goalie abit the sad.. coz hand nua after gym.. den vs all the fit ppl we lost.. haha. den darren n his frens come we go play the other court.. there beta.. coz i play outfield.. haha.. scored a hattrick okie.. lol.. den scored a header oso.. i tink is my first eva header goal.. den soccer finish go mac drink water den go find mama liao.. den came home bath slp.. den today nth to do.. tink lata doing the report.. den play fm.. den nth else liao.. hai.. tired.. tml is wk3.. another like 12wks of sch wk till the end.. how to tahan??!!

my life seems so busy now. yet i noe i'm missing something. n i noe wad i'm missing. i just dunoe who. hai.

Friday, October 06, 2006 at 23:52
Book Recommendation

The Kite Runner, by Khaled Hosseini.

Thursday, October 05, 2006 at 17:52
an accident waiting to happen

hot ah hot.. fcking shit.. now is juz day 9 of tis fcked up sem.. how to last till exams?? seriouslly lacking in motivation to complete my diploma rite now.. getting worse..

almost lost it serveral times today.. its only a matter of time b4 i start shouting/whacking tat gay in class.. he beta learn how to shut his fcking mouth.. almost forget.. to evryone who noes whoeva i'm referring to when i use the terms "gay" n "slut", pls do note tat tis is my personal opionion thru tings tat i noe of n i feel of n oso its very the tainted.. so pls do not take every comment tat i make n tink its entirely the truth. of coz if u personally tink they oso deserve the term den good for evryone la.. bud if u dun there's no nid to tink of them as tat juz becoz of wad i say..

okie so lets continue.. toking abt his mouth juz now.. anyway i'm a person who really enjoys silence or peace.. bud tat doesnt mean i'm anti-NOISY PPL.. coz i'm perfectly fine wif wx even thou she's the noisiest in class.. bud sumhow last yr was HER, den now is SHIM (coz he's a gay), both happens to make really irritating/uncalled for/redundent noises at the most inappropriate times.. so yea.. bud the HER now alr okie la.. she dun come disturb me i wont care abt her.. the SHIM leh, nowadays like to gossip alot in class, on train, basically evrywhere.. continue gossip n whisper in class.. go on, when i shout at u to shut up u beta dun be too surprised.. like my title for tis post, its an accident waiting to happen.. now is only c when my limit is reached.. anyway.. now abt the slut.. i believe its once again very obvious to all tat she's starting to pave her way for re-entry into their clique.. its okie u noe.. coz if u dun do so b4 fyp presentation, after fyp presentation i will oso start ignoring u.. anyway wads so good abt sticking wif me now when all i do is giv a black face n participate in NO talk at all.. of coz wif tat gay u can tok, flirt, act together mah.. u wont feel so bored.. i oso noe tat u noe i'm unhappy wif u la.. u oso acting only.. i admit i oso acting wif tis slut la.. coz really there's not much i can do until tis fyp is over lor..

maybe its me la.. i hav social problems.. recently even forgotten how to keep a conversation gg.. tok less den 10 sentences wif ppl i'm okie wif i oso run out of tings to say.. even wif nasir oso.. hai.. gg become antisocial liao.. abit tired.. lets show the msn nic i using now.. bud gg to change soon.. tis one abit too offensive.. bud not tat i care, i juz wana use a more offensive one u c..

Leong - i'm sorry i'm not as shallow n as talkative as u r nor as GAY as u r. i'm really sorry. if u'r wondering if its u i'm talking about, u really nid to stop acting so GAY.

now let me go tink of the new nic den show u all oso..

Leong - pretty soon we'll c a slut n gay reunion. i'm sorry if u'r offended by tis comment, bud i din really expect u to tink of urself as a slut/gay.

okie.. i believe 90% cla will tink tat i'm talking abt her.. oh maybe i m.. hahha. bud well, i din put a name there.. so wadeva. i've had enuf of acting.. tis sem wont be acting wif ppl i dun need to act wif.. basically tats evryone except cla n the lecturers.. i mean how can dun act wif lecturers?? i wan my distinctions one k.. as for cla, wad to do?? lets juz wait for fyp to b ova n done wif..

hai.. so i guess my poly life isnt exactly the greatest eh.. yr 1 had 9 clique frens.. yr 2 go separate course den the remaining 9 oso spilt up.. now left wif wh carol cyn n nas, den pear n christina, den jx n dan is dunoe where one.. den jiarui gone elsewhere alr.. den yr 2 n 3 tis class, its sad.. of the many ppl, nadia wx et can considered my frens.. the rest r either neutral or DNT (do not touch).. hai.. go club oso.. the sports comm ppl only 5 to 6 frens.. den tat time join the captain ball wif wx they all end up kena den i mia frm club.. den ytd wanwei still tell me wx they lack of ppl ask me help them.. wad for?? when tats the cause of me gg mia.. hai.. maybe its really me tat has a problem.. bud i m juz no longer interested at smiling n laughing wif others FOR SHOW.. so now when i'm in sch.. if u c me black face looking at u, i probably aint very happy to c u.. if i smile or tok wif u, probably ur appearance has been appreciated..

okie back to slut n gay.. some of u who dunoe who i toking abt may wonder y i so dislike them.. well. the slut is the one last time i tell story one.. abt the married man one.. den now sumore she oso same pattern as the gay one.. wad pattern?? i'll elaborate more now.. the ting abt tis gay is tat he's seriously a fcking big actor.. act still nvm. act until so unprofessional.. talk n chitchat wif evryone in class.. luff at wadeva rubbish u throw him, y?? coz he wana be socialable.. kns.. all his tok n luffs r fake one la.. need ur help tat time will come n ask u tis ask u tat.. den dun nid den juz entertain u wif sum lame shit.. lets take a look at a case study to further understand wad i mean.. hahaha.. it involves the slut n the fyp la.. maybe i said b4.. bud the ting is wad?? he draws lines... lots of them.. frens n studies, must hav a clear line.. canot sacriface studies for frenship.. tat time deciding fyp grouping.. den he agreed to team wif another guy plus the slut.. den after tat start to regret.. den end up he go find slut the good fren ask her join them instead den dun wan do wif the slut.. y?? coz he scared she pull them down.. wad a nice fren.. den after tat the slut very angry etc etc.. now?? gg for reunion alr.. y?? coz the slut noes tat when i do fck care her, she lata end up no place go very malu.. so now faster act n b chummy frens wif the gay again.. maybe i'm petty.. it doesnt even concerns me.. yes i noe abt "forgive n forget".. bud i hav to say tat certain tings canot be forgiven nor forgotten.. tis kind of drawing lines n backstabbing frens tings r certainly one.. i certainly will nv wish to be associated wif tis kind of ppl as my frens..

oh well.. wadeva.. its one hell of alot of slander charges tat can b pressed against me juz for tis post.. the gay or the slut, if u'r interested in sueing me pls do so.. do juz go ahead n kill my future for me.. since in ur eyes, its always about urself.. go ahead.. i'm waiting.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 16:23
quick update

okie.. had a rather long day ytd.. after lessons end at 6 went dhoby ghaut opp the paradiz center there the mind cafe.. cyn n carol both working there den we went.. wh n nas oso got go.. den coz i end lessons late i ownself go.. den go there played board games n etc.. actually its not a bad business idea.. open a cafe den ppl sit arnd a table play alot of diff varieties of board games with their own frens den hungry can order food oso.. bud sit till the legs abit the sore.. hahhaa.. den i reached was 630.. played till 11 la.. hahha.. den i got one game got diff players.. den i kena purple colour one.. den after tat another game ducks one they gave me purple n called me they "gay duck".. very sad.. call their ah gong gay.. den they all is all mutants alr.. hahaha.. den ytd was ladies nite so we 3 guys each person $2 per hr.. 4.5hrs so is $9 each.. plus the set meal $14.. 23 bucks.. bud okie la.. coz the 2 gals paid $3 each for the "table" oso.. sumore no service charge coz they worker there mah.. den "discount".. haha.. came home after tat nv online.. den today go sch for a prac nia den come home liao.. the prac equals no prac.. so din bother to wear shoes.. tml got her followup oso gg to wear slippers.. den now cant do fyp coz taq polymerase ran out den nxt wk den coming so i dun nid do yet.. haha.. den juz now vaccum my room n wash the fans.. sweat alot.. now blog n lata bath finish den play fm.. nth liao.. nchs ppl study hard for ur EOY/N/O Levels.. good luck!

i tink i may hav an idea on wads the reason. anway, this will be the last time saying anything to u.. juz hope tat u will live ur life better than it was b4 all tis k.. if there's anyting u need my help feel free to ask me.. i will not close the door on u.. goodbye my fren.. take care.

Monday, October 02, 2006 at 19:34
random

oh well.. noticed the prev font colour i used was rather eye-catching n nice.. so i tot maybe i'll use tat colour when i'm feeling very fine n happy. so nope.. not now.. haha..

anyway, m in sch rite now.. juz now after lessons didnt really like the prospects of gg home tgt wif mr gay so decided to juz lie n say i wasnt gg home juz yet.. well, i din really lie i guess.. coz i did never go home.. hahaha.. came lib did 2 assignments.. one due tml one due wed.. both done.. went fc3 to eat.. seriously until tis past holz did i noe fc3 got so many not tat bad food.. recently keep eating frm waffleton.. alot of fried stuffs.. gg sore throat soon.. anyway after eating came back lib.. coz 7pm the train alot of ppl la.. so wait till 8 den go back.. den did my fyp report the intro part.. completed it.. den now must edit clar's material n method.. abit the sad case.. other day den do or lata if at home play fm till sian.. hahaa.. luckily tml after lesson gg out no nid find excuse again.. gg to cyn n carol's work place tat cafe i tink.. to play board game n eat.. -_-... i go there is to show face one.. hahaha.. ala.. tats about all.. hard to blog.. surrounded by who noes who n they may be reading wad i'm typing.. hahaha.. bye..

at 00:58
frm an email

sorts according to birthdates.. mine is as followed:

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

those in yellow indicates i agree.. others r debatable.. tag n leave a note if u'r interested in the email.. i'll fwd to u..

Sunday, October 01, 2006 at 11:32
oh well...

here juz to say about one ting.. wif regards to wad is happening between huiting, gladys, katie, weilin and to a certain extent alina, there's only one ting i will say. each n evry of u hav my belief n trust tat to a certain point u all r right in ur thinking.. i do not noe the whole story bud for me personally, i choose to believe evryone of u coz all of u r/were my cadets n all of u deserve my trust.. i hope to c tis solved bud i do understand oso tat even when it has been solved, there will still be cracks, just like how a broken cup can be glued together.. so all of u should juz cool down, n try to piece the pieces back together again, or if not, cool down n concentrate on ur exams first b4 attempting to do so k... all the best to the frenship tat u 4 once shared.. no1 wishes to c it the way it currently is..