at 18:50
full time believer of science, part time believer of fate.

since some half a yr or more ago i decided tat i'll believe in science to explain almost evryting tat happens in life n to a certain extend to believe in fate as to wad happens.. science i believe can explain alot about all the tings tat takes place n happens.. those tat science cant explain, probably means its still waiting for sumone to discover how to explain it.. hahaha.. as for fate, i guess its the ting tat makes us choose the side of the path tat we walk on.. two evenings ago i was walking home.. i was looking to my right at a playground seeing some kids playing den suddenly tis "coocoon" hanging by a spider web or wadeva appear near the front of my eyes.. i was walking on the left side of tat walkway.. had i been walking on the right, tat ting would hav juz smack rite into my face.. juz now while i was walking pass tat path again, it was no longer there.. probably smacked sumone else's face i guess.. n wad does tis mean? i guess its the person's fate to hav walked smack into tat ting n not mine.. there's no reason to explain y i chose to walk on the left.. i juz did.. bud as i continued tinking juz now, i tot of sumting rather absurd.. n tat is our daily life is juz an actual run of wadeva is supposed to take place.. suppose during our slp evrynite we will go thru the "rehearsals" of wad is to take place the nxt day n den when we wake up, we will go thru the whole act of the "rehearsals".. maybe tats y i was walking on the left of tat path.. n maybe tats y when we go without slp for a nite, we start getting confused n has a shorter attention span the nxt day.. it may be coz we dun noe wad we'r supposed to do n end up having to decide on alot of tings.. n maybe tats y when we dun slp for 2 nites in a row, we get worst.. hahhaa.. n maybe its coz of us drifting in n out of consicousness during our slp tat when we drift back in, we seem to c certain images bud we juz subconsciously junk it as part of our dream n forget abt it.. den when we happen to run thru tat particular scene again we get tat deja vu feeling.. oh well.. maybe i'm tinking too much.. hahaa.. nvm.. enuff of tis.. i'm gg off to watch the sleague match on CNA.. $10 on the line!! hahaha.. as for the alphaberts tingy, sorry ppl.. no time.. hahhaa.. if lata got online again den add.. hahhaa.. byebye..

the day you went away - M2M
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone

Wednesday, September 27, 2006 at 14:14
does it matter?

hai.. finally pcr today got results.. sumore so bright... really sad.. whole holz using either a spoilt taq or dntp.. really sian.. den now must start to chiong arnd 100 samples for 3 pcr tests each.. really kam pua sian.. den worse still when ur fyp grp only 2 ppl when other grps usually hav 3.. sumore tat other one like sai like tat.. wear slippers till get servere warning.. do tings anyhow do, calculate need add how much so simple ting oso do wrong.. sumore juz now same ting again.. i over there doing she go out wif her frens.. worst ting is i dun even really care abt the grade we'r gona get.. report oso.. i kena intro she kena methods.. methods so simple.. den the intro still wan me by tis sunday finish.. abit hard la huh.. i open the msword doc only feel like closing tat programme alr.. how to do?? tml if go gel come out nth again i tink i will juz go toilet n slp la.. wtf.. got a feeling tis sem i go lesson n nv go will hav no diff.. seriously i dun giv a damn wad happening in class.. wad stupid class fund.. need pay another ten bucks.. last sem's ten bucks i tink i the most oso used 5 nia lor.. they keep use it pay for their own ppl's tingy.. y shld i finance such tings?? tink if they keep chasing i'll juz giv five bucks.. n tis five bucks is giv et face den giv one lor.. juz now in lab tink et noe tat i very not happy must pay ten.. i over there keep saying ten abit too much.. pay for barbeque?? who said anyting abt wanting to go for a bbq? did i? nah.. juz to draw the line, i dun c them as my class.. i c them as my buddy class.. so yea.. dun expect too much frm me tis sem.. since after tis sem oso no need c them anymore.. at least sum gay has finally noticed my persistent coldness towards him.. oh well.. feeling really very fark up.. bud hai.. nvm.. let money heal my farkness.. last nite won 1.6 net.. hahaa.. tonite not betting.. sad.. lata munich win i will very sad.. coz nv buy.. hahaha.. evryday i look fwd to gg home n when i reach home, i find myself having nth to do.. well of coz dun include the report n other assignments etc la.. those r juz not motivating enuf.. hahaha.. hai.... gotta go gotta go.. 1130 got epl highlights.. hahha.. seriously i must admit during the past few weeks i watched manu at jeremy hse.. c.ronaldo is really not bad an attacker when he has the ball.. rooney is abit the sad case.. tink he alr on the way down to sum place to rot liao.. maybe gg to manu wasnt tat smart a careerer move.. hahaha

Monday, September 25, 2006 at 22:23
school, work n no more

Wang Lee Hom Autograph Session
Date: Sunday 1 Oct'06
Venue: Junction 8, Top of the 8, L3
Time: 2.00pm

anyone wana go? nope.. i'm not gg.. or technically u can say i'm gg.. hahaha.. bud i'll be there to earn money.. hopefully nv kena dua by jeremy fren.. haha.. 3hrs crowd control earn 50.. hopefully not too good to be true.. hahaa.. since oso nth to do den go stand arnd take money lor.. hahaa.. so today first day of sch.. abit of wth.. go lesson at 1 den sit awhile mark attendance den go home liao.. went do fyp.. still fcked.. tml gg try pcr again.. tink woo oso tulan tat no results liao.. haha.. den tml got lessons liao.. sian.. hai.. no more.. gone.

i tink i may noe y tis is happening.. bud i'm afraid i'm making a wrong guess.. bud correct or not, if u'r afraid of hurting me, it wont happen. i still wish to b ur fren.. bud i doubt anyting will happen.. coz i noe i wont b doing much more.. the ball is in ur court.. hai.. at least i'm glad tat u din block me.. oh yea i noe.. haha.. take care ba.. u wan those datasheets feel free to get frm me..

okie.. forgot abt tis again.. hahaa.. today's G...

Galvin L** - sgss classmate in upper sec.. very fit guy.. thou not much abt him.. last heard was in CJC.. now shld be NS ba.. haha..

Genevieve O** - my ex.. oh well.. lots of regrets abt tis relationship.. too late for anyting thou.. blah...

Gerald Y*** - sgss classmate.. abit gay.. bud still not gayed till i will condemn tat extent.. haha.. nth much abt him oso.. juz another classmate..

Ginny F** - my quest boss.. hahhaa.. juz her office no.. hahaa

Gladys L** - nchsrcy junior. tis one is one big lian.. hahhaa.. bud ala.. not tat cham actually oso la.. bud aiya.. dunoe wad to say oso.. lata say wrong she c liao i kena whack nxt time i c her.. haha.. lovely gal la.. if the mouth dun open for too long.. hahaha.. definately now more matured den when she went thru her batch's LDC..

Glenn F** - nchsrcy one.. elaine's batch oso.. the only "fulltime" male ba.. den nth much.. juz tat their batch the ppl keep saying we'r brothers.. hahaha.. die man.. so many ppl i like alike wif.. haha..

Guang H** - sgss classmate frm sec1 till 4.. lower sec he was always wif seng.. den upper sec had sum sort of tings happen i tink.. he was more of play bball than play soccer one.. den last sat juz saw him at bh wif his jc frens.. oso nth much to say to him.. juz said a hi nia.. ahhaa..

tats all folks.. bye..

Saturday, September 23, 2006 at 10:34
the end of my holz

so fast 4wks has gone.. n my fyp done = nv done.. coz no results.. end up same as b4 holz.. wth.. like tat shldnt hav bothered to go back n do at all.. ala.. c open sch how la.. i wonder if continue no results till the deadline will how.. hahah.. so all the days b4 go back sch.. den ytd nv go.. afternn went nchs for their crosscountry do fad.. ala.. go there den walk first rnd in the opp direction.. den reach checkpoint 2 there got alot of monkeys.. den the cadets telling me tat px kena attack by monkey den cry.. hahha.. den i look at the monkeys they look at me.. they oso dun dare touch me.. den walk till fabase.. den nth to do so go walk another rnd.. tis time in the actual direction.. walk till half alr wan to die liao.. bud ala.. still must walk one mah.. den continue lor.. den reach the bus stop saw one student sit there.. den no first aider bud got 2 tchers.. so go c lor.. den got abrasion la.. den i anyhow clean for her first.. den cover liao ask her go back finishing point go the fabase again.. coz my box oso not much tings to do properly. sumore so many ppl keep walking pass n look at her.. den walked back den very sian alr.. shagged.. so juz stand there look here n there.. den went back sch.. den wait for the sec3s to waste time finish den go cp.. eat alr den walk to px "old" hse downstair wait for her coz she gg her "new" hse at my hse here mah.. den after tat take lrt walk to her blk den come home liao.. gone la.. no more peaceful days at fernvale.. gotta start avoiding her.. hahhaa.. den reached home bro using com so go slp lor.. lata maybe gg gym la.. abit tired alr.. c how.. after tat still playing soccer.. haha.. most prob tonite coming home slp ba.. coz for the past 4 wkends i got at least one nite not at home.. haha.. either go jeremy hse watch soccer or go yc hse play winning11.. hahaha.. tats abt all.. go yen jiu how to make money via singaporepools liao.. ahaha..

ala.. totally forgot.. wanted to tok abt how u all r treating ym oso.. all of u r alr/abt to be 15.. get IC alr.. yet sumtimes the way u all tink ah.. is totally not ur age.. like wad i told him.. sum of u the attitude/piqi is really cmi.. he is ur peer.. ur squadmate.. frm sec1 till nxt yr.. he is not ur enemy.. he may not be ur best fren bud he is supposed to b ur fren.. even qw when he wif his batch.. he oso may not be the most gum wif evryone.. he can be even worst den ym.. he will juz go up to u n say u'r damn ugly or wadeva.. yet they dun condemn him.. n yet u all keep shooting or rebutting wadeva he says.. yes i noe sumtimes he tend to say tings tat r inappropriate.. bud he is afterall ur peer.. n he is different frm u all in the way of tinking.. he has his own way of tinking.. nvm tat u all cant accept it.. bud at least there's no need to be so critical abt it.. trust me.. when u all graduate frm nchs u all will miss his rantings.. esp if u all end up at sum group which is terrible hardworking n quiet... appreciate him.. he needs fren.. evrybody does.. u all hav ur own grp of frens n buddies.. u tink he has?? all he has left is his peers frm rc n yet tis is how u all treat him.. put urself in his shoes.. he's been pai chi evrywhere he goes.. n even his only source of hope does tat to him too.. tats y i left the room.. n tats y i walked wif him to cp.. i can only hope tat all of u will learn to treat him beta..

i guess the wall is still there, only becoz i m putting it there. - there's a double meaning in tis sentence.. hope u dun understand it.. hahaha

damn forgetful today.. forgot abt the names oso.. hahaha.. today's E.. happy waiting yuching!

Edwin G******* - sgssrcy senior.. he is one hell of a smart ass.. topped the sch for his level can.. sumore all the tchers when i went sec3/4 n they noe i frm rc will start toking abt him.. no they did not mention u, yuching.. hahaha.. now dunoe disappear where alr.. since he left sec sch oso nv c him liao i tink..

Edwin H* - sgss fren... nv same class b4.. not the same cca oso.. haha.. he's npcc one.. den the only ting we shared in common was probably in the fitness club (actually its juz a nice name for TAF or FAT club).. hahaa.. den his bball not bad if i nv rmb wrongly.. nw oso dunoe mia till where liao..

Eileen C*** - my sp yr3 class rep.. pos..

Eileen T** - sp classmate frm yr2 to 3.. blur person.. bud dunoe y sumtimes abit stubborn or insistent.. tat time the fyp tingy.. sad.. tok to her on the fone for 3hrs.. she cry n cry.. in the end frm 3 ppl end up become 2.. sad.. now can alr considered 1.. me.. hahaha.. hai.. now my whole class i tink she's the one tat i will tok to the most alr.. hahaha.. c how it goes la..

Elaine Y** - nchsrcy junior.. actually not much of a junior.. coz when i was in contact wif her batch.. it was more of working tgt for the workshop rather den under me.. so yea.. anway.. she's one matured brain.. thou at times still abit short-tempered.. erm.. tis part is based on the last time tat i saw her for rc.. hahaha.. only rmbed celebrating her 16th bday if i nv rmb wrongly for her early.. hahhaa.. coz she was due for an op on her stomach in the june holz.. den her bday was in july n she was afraid tat she might not be able to celebrate it so i celebrated for her at a few blks frm her home.. hahaha.. thou there was no bday song coz i noe i dun hav a nice voice.. haha..

Elroy C*** - sgss classmate for sec3 n 4.. prefect.. den asst head prefect if i nv rmb wrong.. got 3 or 2 for our batch.. haha.. jaisilan was the other one.. big guy tis one.. abt same size as me.. haha.. den very hardworking.. nth much oso..

Eng T** - cls club one.. den last time i still on tat time will go home wif him n aaron.. coz all nel one..

Enoch L** - cls focamp noe one.. danisco de.. very tall.. i tink slightly taller den me.. hahaa.. skinny oso.. nowadays in sch always c him at fc1. haha..

Eric L** - sp classmate.. nth much abt him.. appear for lessons when he likes.. haha.. bud at least tat time do the cchem assignment wif him he got contribute la.. other den tat nth much..

Esther T** - elaine's batch the chairperson.. nice gal thou i nv tok much wif her.. only rmb evacuating her on a stretcher.. wah i tell u.. the palm pain sia.. hahaha.. sumore tat one was i 1 person carry two handles.. den the others carry the other 2 handles.. wah.. hahhaa.. now oso abit mia liao.. nv c her much for tis past 2yrs.. bud i believe she was well-liked by her juniors..

do F oso la. since 4 only..

Fadhli - cls danisco one.. very nice grpmate to hav.. sure to hav little jokes here n there when wif them.. ahhaa.. den now in sch keep c him wif his motorbike the helmet.. ahhaha..

Farhain - Angela's fyp mate.. rather okie person to "work wif"...

Felix C.K - he's the cat! hahaha.. tis bloody sucker frm indonesia.. hai.. sec 3 joined us.. den he 2yrs b4 tat den started learning chi.. den end up sec3 n 4 he topped the level in chi lar!! kns.. hahhaa.. very nice body n very handsome face.. sec3 tat time abit like jay chou the image.. now change alr.. haha.. bud he's a handsome dude.. dark complexion sumore.. ppl who r alr excited can go frenster n c his profile.. shld be in the f portion of my frens.. hahaha.. very nice fren.. thou now soccer i tink he wont appear so often coz he living at ntu the hostel which is abt half a singapore away frm bh.. hahaha..

Fong C*** - sp classmate for yr2 n 3.. the one n only true soccer fan in my class.. sumore now got car.. bud nv c his car b4.. coz after he n cla broke den he joined the other clique alr.. sad.. hahaha.. bud at times he seems abit of those mai fish one.. u noe.. hahhaa

Tuesday, September 19, 2006 at 20:38
i guessed so too

oh well.. tat 30mins by the sea did well.. left my burden by the sea.. anw, its peaceful at ecp during wkdays.. no kids running about. no crowd. juz a few uncles n unders who r all too free n etc.. certainly not tat bad a place for ppl who r feeling down.. sat at the bench. feel the land/sea (forgotten) breeze coming at my face. listening to the music. waiting for the reply tat nv came. tot of a story title called "the tsunami tat nv came" n its storyline. thou i doubt i'll ever start writing abt it.. forgot abt the fyp blues for a moment.. maybe if tml the pcr come up neg again n woo cant do anyting abt it den i will juz leave it as it is n go for my holz heh?? hai.. anw. really felt very different when i walked into ecp n when i left.. hopefully it will last.. n beta stop dropping my hp.. it has restarted on its own for twice today alr.. die.. oh well. tried to arrange mahjong wif nas wh carol n cyn.. bud no more.. they'r not free.. oh ya.. walked frm payalebar mrt to ecp.. frm the usual route i guess.. so long since i walked it. yet i rmbed. i guess i do hav a good memory when it comes to direction n places.. on the way. saw the tennis court. n rmbed abt the tennis game tat nv was.. rmbed alot of tings. bud juz like the tennis game, they nv were... i guess tis is the end. n who said there would b happy endings.. evry story comes to an end.. whether its a sad or a happy ending depends on how each individual deems it to be.. perspective.. tink one or two yrs back i agreed upon a philosophy wif nurul, "evryting has more den one way of being looked at. its the way u look at it tat makes u tink likewise." oh well.. long time since.. n at the bench, looked out to the sea n saw the distant island.. wondered abt last time the ppl if there were there n they saw the images of the islands far away tat i saw, wad would they do.. definately they will be curious to find out wad tat is all abt.. will they swim all tat way out far? or will they rack their brains n build sum sampans or wadeva n sail over to there? b4 i left, i came up wif a philosophy relating to tis, "to noe wad lies ahead, one has to move ahead. it will nv come to u." i guess its the same wif life. we juz hav to move ahead to find out wads ahead. for those who fear knowing wad lies ahead, they run, they hide. at the end of the day, they r still where they were n they r still facing the prospect of knowing wad lies ahead. i guess its probably enuf.. mayb shall do D today. hope not too many names.. hahha.. btw the ** r for privacy of my blog.. dun wan ppl to go typing their names in yahoo or blogger n finding my link N SEEING WAD I SAID ABOUT THEM. well, when i say tis, it probably means those who do not noe of my link, so dun worry, u ppl r safe.. hahaaha.. n i believe tis "hahaha" was the first in the post?? tats a rarity.

Daniel N* - frm sgss i believe.. sec3 n 4 classmates.. nv tok much to him oso.. bud he's a hip guy.. doing break dance n etc wif the others.. hahaha

Daniel T** - sp yr1 classmate.. in the family too.. he's my second wife.. hahaha.. n he's the one who bore the two kids coz the first wife is said to be infertile.. hahaha.. tis is wad u get when its science ppl toking.. others will juz say the guy's a flirt.. hahaha.. sports guy.. yr1 evrytime go his hse play winning eleven wif jx n nas oso.. go clementi stadium there the CRC play pool oso.. memories..

Darius O** - frm pri sch.. was in the LOMOBAT wif me... tats LOcate MOsquito Breeding Area Team.. when i p6 mr herman chose me to be the head coz i was frm his soccer team oso.. ahhaa.. den when the original asst head quitted, darius became the asst head. funny guy who's sporty oso.. bud lost touch after pri sch n since...

Darren C*** - sgss classmate for 4yrs.. one hell of a joker.. bud ala.. frm sec1 fatter den me till sec4 still fatter den me now he alr much thinner liao.. sumore his weight frm 110 now is 70+.. omg.. recently start appearing for soccer again liao.. hahaha.. great fren. always hav sumting to tok wif him abt.. now tats rare for a person like me.. haha.. oh ya.. he joined red cross in sec1 or 2.. i influenced him one.. haha.. bud join less den 1mth he quitted, sumore buy uniform alr.. mad guy.. spend $80+ buy uniform den quit.. ahhaa

Daryl K** - frm sp.. dun really noe him.. juz tat tis juz past sem was in same gems as him n tat siong.. okie la.. bud nth much to tok wif him abt.. hahha

Deborah C*** - nchsrcy junior.. chairperson for her batch.. hardworking n committed person.. was rumoured wif her.. bud well, i hav lots of rumours.. n there's nth frm any rumour..

Derren L** - sgssrcy junior.. abit tut-tut.. bud when sec 2 or sumting kinda wrong company n end up one gangster-wannabe.. bud he's a good person deep down.. even after he gangster-liked he was still the same in rc.. my nice junior.. was sort of my tudi in rc after i passed out.. abit like qw tat type of relationship.. thou useless bud entertaining.. hahaha.. just kidding.. qw dun cry k.. bud yea.. anw now oso lost touch wif him liao...

Desmond s/o V****** - sgssrcy peer.. super tall guy.. abt to reach 2m i believe.. hai.. still rmb sec1 juz start tat time i tallest in my batch.. den got one whole lot of ppl joined after the picking of CCA or sumting.. n he among them!! no more tallest.. den go sec 2 or 3 raj oso grew taller den me!! end up become 3rd tallest nia.. when i'm alr so tall!! ala.. life.. hahha..

Dickson - nchs npcc sir.. frm sp oso.. my batch bud biotech..

Don C*** - sgss classmate.. sec 3 n 4.. sec1 n 2 forgot liao.. bud maybe.. hhaha.. only noe upper sec he was class chairman.. den sec4 juz starting tat time we all trying to be funny.. jeremy say he wan take over don as chair, den darren felix me n others wan the other class committee posts.. den nick chow say canot.. hahaha..

well.. tats all ppl.. bye

Monday, September 18, 2006 at 20:57
never never never

knew knew knew

life is all about regrets yea.. its always the same ting happening.. late late late..
anyway.. today will continue wif B n C frm my fonebk.. coz B got 2 nia.. hahaha..

Benedict H* - sgssrcy senior.. chairperson when i juz joined.. evrytime wif dennis.. bud they 2 i heard is sec 3 chiong too much den sec 4 slacking.. hahhaa.. den he went over to nchsrcy n probably the first reason for me to appear at nchsrcy ba.. anyway.. last sat juz saw him at the gym.. bud oso nth much to tok to him abt.. hahaa..

Benjamin - cls club ppl.. another soccer lover.. good guy bud nth much abt him coz nv really clicked..

Cai F* - sec 1 classmate.. now oso got play soccer one.. tis guy really grown alot. sec 1 thou he classchairman bud size damn small.. bud he made up for his size thru other attributes ba.. i believe he's now addicted to smoking n drinking.. erm, a good candidate for early death if he doesnt change tat soon.. ahhaha..

Calida W** - cls club ppl.. another frm Danisco.. was the best camper (female) for our FO camp.. now oso alr so call no contact liao... den nth much abt her oso.. juz tat her hair when nv rebond is really very curly.. hahha

Carol L** - my soon frm yr1 class.. very active in evryting.. den last time went airport study overnite wif her.. smart gal.. can go SAJC dun wan.. haha.. den now alr diff course bud still c her once awhile.. i forgot she resembles wad. hahha.. i probably told her b4.. forgotten.. hahhaa

Cedric - cls club ppl. nth much to say abt him.

Charles G** - frm sec sch.. tink is sec 3 onwards classmates.. great guy.. still can rmb we sec3 go cameroon highland wif sch.. me him jeremy n felix.. we 4 damn funny.. sumore i brought yc's PS.. den we at the hotel at nite playing alot of ppl come visit.. ahhaha.. frm band.. thou other den the trip oso not much tok wif him..

Chee R** - my Danisco papa! hahaa.. very tall.. n was cls VP when i yr1.. now in army.. oso nv tok much wif him liao..

Chee W** - sgss schmate.. 4yrs nv once same class.. hahaha.. rich ass.. once in a blue moon appear for soccer thou he stay so near.. haha.. evrytime ask him oso nv reply..

Chen C** - repair my computer one.. my cousin's fren.. bud ala.. dunoe if he got purposely take out some parts frm my com so tat it will spoil n need find him let him earn money not.. hahaha..

Chester T** - my allstar captain.. fit, thin rat.. ph?? hahhaa.. hairstyle oso like change quite alot of times liao.. hahaa.. study hard for ur O la k.. after O find one day go back do obsticle course.. hahaha..

C*** Hui - primary schmate.. last time in pri sch kena bully.. now in SP club oso kena bully.. hahhaa.. bud obviously not by me.. bud still rmb one time in pri sch i go take the rubber band n paper to shoot him.. those damn pain type.. den he sit infront of me mah.. den shoot liao he yelled.. den the tcher sent me down to find mr herman (DM) coz i prefect mah.. den say wan him to strip me of my prefect tie.. hahaha.. end up tis guy run down tell mr herman is he ask me to shoot him one.. joker sia.. good fren la..

C*** Liang - our boss frm the soccer grp.. hahaha.. frm sec1 to sec4 oso nv same class b4.. bud he play soccer the style damn zai.. calm n composed.. sumore tackle ball 95% will win the ball.. ala.. den most memorable abt him is we sec 3 or 4 went watch movie.. den is supposed to be scary one.. den got one scene so call scary bud we all juz watch n keep quiet la.. den went finish tat scene he go say "ouch" as a sound effect.. really very joker.. size quite big den say "ouch".. hahhaa

C*** Seng - ah seng.. sec1 n 2 classmate.. very fast.. soccer very good oso.. bud he sec sch nv join sch team.. hahaha.. den now quite frequent appear for soccer.. bud nowadays keep bring his gf along.. bring along nvm.. she sit there read storybk or watch us play... when evryone can c tat she dun watch soccer one.. hahaha.. den we keep saying his gf is his manager.. anyone wan sign him must approach her. hahhaa..

Christina - sp classmate.. mouth big.. other den tat cant stand her.. hahaha

Christina T** - sp yr1 classmate.. part of our family.. my daugher-in-law.. hahah.. quiet n shy gal.. nv tok much to her for tat 1yr oso la.. hahha

Chrisy C**** - hmm.. tis one is my mei's pri sch classmate.. coz i when my mei p6 noe her mah.. den she intro tis gal n another one to me oso... bud now all oso nv contact one.. my mei oso mia alr.. hahaha..

Clarice C*** - sp classmate frm yr2 to now.. fyp grpmate oso.. hai.. used to be rather close frens.. nowadays abit hard to trust her.. dun wan dwell on tis topic.. den fyp oso lanlan.. tat time b4 start still say scared i make her get lousy grade.. now leh.. keep attitude lecturers.. den wear slippers to lab even after so many reminders.. end up HOD complain to woo den woo come giv her final warning den she start wear shoe.. now alr so sad no results still gg holz for tis wk.. left me ownself do. ala.. anytime i giv up i tink she will die.. hahaha..

Clyve T** - pri sch classmate.. last time used to go his hse.. oso dunoe do wad.. juz noe his hse is those hdb blks bud 2 stories one.. den now oso quite lost touch.. only last yr when all went for andrew's church tat x'mas tingy den met..

Colin - sgssrcy senior.. the ting is when i enter he alr left.. den he oso come back once in a long while nia.. come back oso scold n pump us nia.. yet he can rmb me.. hahaha.. den saw him at sp when i juz entered.. now oso mia liao.. bud he's a nice guy.. thou abit diff wavelength frm me oso.. hahha

Colin W*** - sp yr1 classmate.. nv tok much.. thou we both same GEMs for the 2nd sem.. hahaha.. bud here n there.. okie la..

Cornelius K*** - sgssrcy peer.. small sized kid.. hahaha. bud very fun loving n etc.. thou towards the end he faded out of rcy.. bud still a good peer.. sumore our charlie cheer is he come up wif one.. hahaha.. "who is the best squad, char- char- charlie. who is the best squad, char- char- charlie. charlie charlie char- char-, char kwek tiao, char kwek tiao. kwek tiao kwek tiao, rocky rocky, pia pia, arh arh! charlie, charlie, all the way. we like it here, we like it here, we found ourselves a home. a home, a home sweet home."

Cyndi - cls club one.. nv tok much oso.. bud a frenly gal.. haha.. was nasir's "laopo" during the FO camp we held..

Cynthia S** - pri schmate.. thou i dun rmb her bud rmb her face.. den after tat sp yr1 same class.. den oso in the family.. she's oso my soon.. like carol oso alot of kang tao one.. very busy one.. den yr1 tat time keep chiong work oso.. bud now tink not so enthu in work alr.. hahhaa.. den always alot of tings to say one.. same as carol.. sumore both same bday.. tats y both my soon.. coz they "twins".. hahhaa..

Sunday, September 17, 2006 at 12:29
no longer the same

dun wish to say much.. bud i guess its juz different now.. tings happen, feelings change. so its no longer the same as it was anymore i guess.. goodbye the old u n me n hi the new u n me..
anyway, frm dunoe when onwards i will post those contacts in my hp onto here, of coz without the numbers.. bud juz to describe or tok abt tis frens of mine.. so maybe i shld start today?

we'll do those starting wif A only for today..
Aaron Q*** - sgssrcy junior.. english educated i tink.. n was short n fat in lower sec.. now is big n fat.. bigger den me, fatter den me.. hahha..

Aaron S*** - frm CLS club.. lives at jln kayu there.. last time when i got go club often go home wif him.. den great guy.. was there for me to tok to when i was down a year ago.. thou now no longer as close, bud he's a nice guy...

Alex - frm Quest.. an uncle.. haha.. nice guy.. humourous.. bud nth much to say abt him oso..

Alfiyan - frm CLS FO camp noe one.. DANISCO.. haha.. tats our grp name.. very fun to be wif.. he n fadh** always making fun of kelvin..

Alicia W*** - classmate frm yr2 onwards.. english-pai one.. den oso live very near me.. thou the way of gg home is diff.. haha.. nth much to tok to her abt or tok abt her oso..

Alina N* - nchsrcy junior.. frog.. considered tall among her batch.. still shorter den me.. haha.. acc to YC she's supposed to be considered the most matured in her batch.. i dun disagree, bud neither do i agree.. hahhaa..

Amira - nchsrcy junior oso.. mixed blood.. quite short.. haha.. tis yr O levels..

AMK Town Council - erm.. dun ask me y.. coz my estate is under them.. n dunoe y last time go save their number.. hahaha..

Andrew E* - primary classmate.. was taller den me n fatter den me.. now is much thinner den me the height i tink abt the same.. tink he recently became christian den now very on..

Angela - Woo's other fyp grp the member.. apparently frm my primary sch oso.. bud i dun rmb her.. thou she seems to find me familiar.. hahaha..

Audrey K** - AK.. tok very fast.. hahaa.. nchsrcy junior oso.. den now sumtimes got appear during training wif rh..

okie.. tats all for A.. for the other alphaberts, stay tuned.. hahhaa

Saturday, September 16, 2006 at 13:58
weird tings happen

okie, juz wana tok abt sum strange ting tat happened ytd.. frm SP gg to NCHS tat time, on the mrt got a fone call.. answered n heard a hongkong slang.. den tot is xu hai lou.. end up is dunoe who frm sengkang polyclinic.. calling to ask me abt a feedback tat i gave them.. abit stun la, considering i dun bother to do such tings n worst still is i nv even go visit tat polyclinic b4.. haha.. ala.. wad to do.. nowadays ppl really very bored.. go arnd leaving ur name n handphone no. for feedback.. thou i nv ask tat guy wad the feedback, i do hav an idea it wasnt to praise them one la.. hai.. wad can i say.. juz hav to be careful wif who u giv ur no. to nowadays.. anyway, if tat person/group of people happens to b reading tis (which i guess most probably yes), pls try to be smarter the nxt time round.. in case u (all) are still living in the age of stones n sticks, there's quite a no. of CCTVs available in s'pore now.. especially such government places.. so eh, try using ur very restless brain k? of coz if u (all) tink polyclinic only no thrill, go ahead n try the police post la k.. do note tat s'pore law not fake one la.. hahhaa.. n i do hav an idea of who may be tat free to do such tings la..

Thursday, September 14, 2006 at 23:29

fyp getting sadder n sadder.. lost finale is even worst.. still tot will end... now must wait lost 3.. hahaha.. anyway juz finished putting together a powperpoint for the first aid tingy tml.. dunoe how helpful it will be... juz here to crap.. anyway GPA got 3.271.. cummulative is 3.3 sumting.. hai.. wads the point.. not gg uni oso.. hahaha..

do u noe tat evry sms i send u, i'm actually no longer expecting a reply frm u? mayb tis will make me appreciate the replies.. n yet, sumtimes i juz dunoe wad to reply u, tats y i put dots....

Wednesday, September 13, 2006 at 09:19
Results

MODULE CODE
MODULE
CREDIT UNITS
GRADE


IS1006
INDUSTRIAL TRAINING PROGRAMME - SINGLE SESSION
4
A


BA005B
INTRODUCTION TO ORGANISATIONAL BEHAVIOUR
2
A


CP2045
HAEMATOLOGY 2
5
DIST


CP2034
BLOOD BANKING
4
B+


LC0206
ORAL COMMUNICATION
2
B+


CP2052
INTRODUCTORY PHARMACOLOGY
2
B+


CP2035
HISTOLOGICAL TECHNIQUES
4
C+


CP2046
MEDICAL MICROBIOLOGY A
5
C+



Semester GPA:
3.271

Cumulative GPA:
3.31

Tuesday, September 12, 2006 at 20:05
a quote

Ability is what you're capable of doing.
Motivation determines what you do.
Attitude determines how well you it.

Sunday, September 10, 2006 at 15:45
enuf is enuf

i guess i've had enuff.. so many years since msn became part of my life.. n since its integration, i've been glued to my com for way too long.. its time to end tis.. no more.. there's not a need to anymore.. y did i come online in the past?? to stay "contactable" wif others.. so tat i'm juz a click away frm getting contacted.. in the process of doing nth except being online.. i started playing FM/CM while being "away" in msn.. wads the point?? evryting has lost its meaning.. even FM is no longer as fun as it was supposed to be.. y did i opened a blog n start toking abt wad i do evryday?? to help me rmb them?? nah.. it juz so tat others may noe wads happening in my life n not feel so detached frm me.. now? wads the point... hai.. tired.. n i've decided.. for the nxt 1 wk, i will not touch the computer.. i will not come online n i will not blog.. i will not play FM n i will not even on my com.. i noe i will end up doing nth except lying on my bed waiting for bedtime to come n go off to slp.. it doesnt matter.. i hav spent enuf of my life in front of a com, respirating n killing my eyesight... no more.. there's no more need. there's no more desire.. so ppl who tag or wadeva.. plz wait 1wk for me to response.. n others who hav urgent tings to look for me for, try my hp.. of coz if i dun reply probably means i went mad afterway thru the week n decided to off my hp till the end of the week as well.. there's simply no more........................ goodbye EVERYONE.

at 12:09
epl

ala.. last nite 10 went out go jeremy hse watch epl.. hahhaa.. watched arsenal middlesbrough.. sad la arsenal.. drew.. den liverpool b4 tat oso gone case.. lost 3 nil everton.. tis 2 teams, GONE. den after tat manu vs tottenham.. can say two of my favourite teams in epl liao la.. bud nv really put my heart into watching it la.. coz no longer as attached to epl anymore.. hahaha.. man u won.. if draw jeremy would hav won $80.. hahaha.. coz he bet combo - everton win n manu draw.. joker.. buy wrong sumore one.. hahaha.. den play awhile of street soccer den slp liao.. coz his winning eleven spoil alr.. haha.. den morning wake up come home liao.. tonite gg play soccer if nth changes.. 8 ppl.. abit sad.. bud ala.. wad e hell.. sat darren always missing.. den sun mw canot.. hahhaa.. tink will play wif one leg wear the puma shoe nia.. rite leg dun wan beta.. if not blisters again.. hai.. tml gg back sch again.. zzzzzzzzz...

read tis in the newpaper juz now.. it tok about whether we should sell the naming rights for the new sports hub to the sponsors.. i feel y not.. since singapore the sports scene alr so lack of interest in input.. might as well sell it to sponsors get sum huge lump of money to inject into the sports scene.. if got sell oso 70% end up as Tiger Stadium one la.. hahhaa.. how nice would it be if its called Creative Stadium.. Sim dunoe wad dunoe wad.. r u listening?? hahhaa.. singapore brand sumore earn so much.. share abit la.. the sleague can do wif like 1million to each club u noe?? den u will c alot more beta play in the sleague.. dunoe la.. country head oso like tat wad can we do.. hahhaa..

i can still remember the days when i was young. when i fell n landed on the floor, looking to my mum for help, only to see her telling me this: "zhi ji dei dao zhi ji pa." i guess now i know why she said that, she was just preparing me for the life that i'll be having. thanks mum.

Saturday, September 09, 2006 at 20:16
saturday

my fried rice has no taste.
my head is throbbing.
off to my world of fantasy in FM.
bye.

Friday, September 08, 2006 at 15:32
bball

juz came back frm nchs there.. went there play bball in the morning wif px, her bro, jamie n hx.. ala.. firstly thank px for asking.. secondly thanks the rest for coming.. lastly i was stunned when px told me got 4 ppl playing.. so little shld cancel alr... hahhaa.. last nite watched lion king 3.. nice show.. coz i roughly still rmb lion king.. den lion king 2 i tink nv watch.. bud tis one is tok abt frm lion king one.. tok abt the two jokers.. not bad la.. anyone wan tat vcd? hahhaa.. tired.. lata tink slping.. ytd frm CP carry tat microwave oven home.. walan eh.. heavy sia.. $139.. 4 kids share buy so called for mama bday present.. hahhaa.. cant tink of wad else to buy liao wad.. ala.. den went wif meimei.. walk frm lrt station to home can kill.. hands totally died.. tml n sunday gg rot again.. mon go back do fyp.. hai.. nxt nxt week will be very free oso.. coz clar gg overseas den tink gg to finish evryting nxt wk.. wad a holz.. blah.. sian.. do u noe tat my inbox is getting emptier n emptier each day? do u noe tat my life no longer evolves arnd anyting? i guess i'll accept tis.. its okie.. only 4 pluz months in poly.. let it revolve arnd gg to sch, fyp n gg home.. when ns comes.. let it be bookin, bookout, soccer?, slp, bookin again.. goodbye la goodbye.. i guess now is a time beta den no other.. hai. thanks for the times.. they are appreciated. take care.

Thursday, September 07, 2006 at 23:43

just wana say
Happy Birthday MAMA!!

kw - stop walking into their trap.. get out b4 its too late..

u - still no news.. i tink i knew tis was coming.. juz didnt noe it would be so soon...

Wednesday, September 06, 2006 at 23:26
future

had been tinking of tis topic for quite some time alr.. coz its juz sumting tat cant escape from u when u'r in ur last yr of sch.. or so i tot.. i certainly didnt giv tis topic much tot in sec4.. hahhaa..

so after doing the unthinkable by ending up in a Poly.. now i'm about to get my diploma.. so wad r the choices available for me?? obviously i meant after my national service.. hahaha..

so i can stay in tis line, get a job at the polyclinic, hospital or private labs providing they wan me.. wad does tat brings me to?? a monthly pay of $1500 i suspect.. hmm.. future looks bleak unless i wan a super zzzz n simple life...

nxt, signing on in the army.. 2 yrs ago very much wanted to sign on.. at least i dun hav to worry for the nxt 4 to 5 yrs.. but... wad abt after tat?? n do i really like army life? will i enjoy myself wearing tat uniform evryday for so many days?? i wonder... tis option seems far frm me at the moment.. haha..

oh.. a tcher.. yes i hav tot of being a tcher.. doubt it'll be pri sch.. wan oso be sec sch.. or maybe i'm more suited for pri sch.. hahhaa.. i dunoe.. bud.. a tcher has many responsibilities.. thou satisfying, how will i cope?? pay supposed to be beta now after the recent changes?? hahhaa. ala.. actually i dun hav much big plans la.. pay will juz go towards paying for food n daily expenses n transport.. the rest either giv parents or save up lor.. i dun intend to buy car, dun intend to buy flat, dun intend to open family (or at least so soon).. so really nth much to spend on.. coz now my money oso juz spent on food nia.. hahaha...

the final other option.. continue studying.. VERY VERY unlikely.. firstly, local Uni maybe still affordable for my parents bud my results very cmi.. den go other countries VERY ex.. n i doubt i'm interested in such tings.. n after 10yrs + yet another 3yrs of studying, maybe i've had enuf.. so i doubt tis ranks high enuf in my list...

n of coz not to forget my 2 dreams.. 1 is more of an aspiration den dream.. to be a soccer player.. S league wadeva league nvm.. play "professional" soccer can liao.. bud abit hard la.. fitness cmi.. skills average.. oso nv play for so long alr.. evryting forgotten.. hai.. try hard k.. hahaha.. den the other one is super dream.. disappear n go sum forest n disappear frm evryone's life.. its possible k.. once i've learnt how to let go.. n how my family can accept my disappearance.. hahhaa.. ala.. tats abt all la.. very sick alr.. gg slp liao.. now evry nite slp b4 12.. nth to do.. hai.. my life seems so empty without you, where have you gone?

at 20:47
Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me how i wish u will learn to trust me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes do u noe how much i yearn to c u cry?
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life show me the true u?
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with let me b ur glue?

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk let me hold ur hand n guide u along
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me i believe i'm old n strong enuf for u to lean on
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain allow me to share ur pain please?
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything i tink i can help
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in giv me the chance to try to enter?
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty let me fill ur life for u?
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you i m doing this right now
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sum tings need a little more effort to be seen. i hope u bother to try.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006 at 08:45
hai..

when i put my prev post as "my last", it was meant to be my last post.. yet i'm here yet again.. so let's explain y i bothered to come here..

woke up 30mins ago.. supposed to go to sch do fyp.. bud coz raining den clarice dun wan do so okie lor.. dun go lor..

had a dream.. last till juz b4 i woke up.. its about u, my fren.. its about to be six days since ur return.. n its been about ten days since i last heard anyting from u.. y? i do not noe.. in the dream, i was juz chasing n chasing after u.. hoping u will stop ignoring me n say sumting to me.. perhaps its to mean sumting to me.. maybe its time to let go of ur hands.. maybe its time tat sumone has came n taken ur hand away alr.. once again, i do not noe.. its troubling alrite, noeing u'r there n not replying my smses.. maybe its time to go, i hope its not, but it may be.. i do not noe.. u hav to let me noe.. i guess u probably still come here to read, so tats y i'm here posting all tis here.. i dun wish to be sending an email instead.. it seems kinda dumb.. coz there's a 70% chance tat there'll be no reponse.. wadeva.. i do not noe.. maybe i've fallen for u.. i do not noe... goodbye??

Sunday, September 03, 2006 at 20:36
my last

3 hectic days... fri went out at 2 like tat.. go ps find cyn n wh den go play pool.. den nas came.. after tat play till 7 like tat went find carot den go hard rock cafe liao.. den wait n wait den finally eat till 10 plus.. den left.. no nid pay.. bu hao yi shi.. thanks u 4! den went home.. sat early morning wake up go nchs put radio den go busstop find yc.. den go tabao beehoon go back canteen eat.. den parade.. ~~.... den ceremony.. ~~... den went CP.. den chao home change first n put radio.. den came back eat free food den go to jj hse there liao.. play bball.. nv kick much soccer.. den went jj hse den his mama lompang to hougang mrt den took all the way to boonlay.. go yc hse.. play winning eleven.. den he at nite fall aslp.. den me n jj find new games play.. end up playing street soccer game.. den 4 plus slpt.. morning 8 plus kena woke up by them liao.. den went eat lunch n came home wif jj liao... den keep slping on the trains.. came home slpt.. now wake up eat den fm.. nth else.. wif tat, everyting shall come to an end..

sumting tells me to keep away.. my handphone is nv off for a reason, that is everyone can contact me if they need do. same applies to u. u noe who i m toking abt.. goodbye

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