Friday, August 11, 2006 at 23:01
hai
kena fly rocket.. so end up nth to do.. so went to the playground there. sat there to think.. alot to think about. nowadays very xin bu zai yen.. hai.. one yr ago i tot it was bad n wanted to change it.. so i did this did that, what r the results? 5114!! hai.. its pathetic la.. no more nxt yr.. no more.. nxt yr juz make it 5000 can alr.. hundred over dollars, get back twenty cents.. hur.. hai.. forget it.. think too much on my part i guess..
so when thinking.. tot of other things too.. since too much time wad.. i guess i've sorted out what i really want.. no u'r not the one i want.. i doubt u want me either.. hahaa.. bud yea.. there's juz pretty much no chances of me being able to fulfill ur needs of being a taitai.. so ya.. its okie.. i'm still here.. i'll still be there to hold ur hands n bring u up.. when its time to let go i'll still be behind u to support u shld u fall.. we'r good.. anyway.. i guess after one big round i'm still back at here. i tot it was juz sumting tat will blow over.. somehow it hasnt.. maybe a long break will help.. i hope.. coz juz now while thinking i felt tat it wasnt over yet.. i tot it was.. i wanted it to be.. it should be.. bud maybe its not yet.. its okie.. wont mention anymore here.. its inappropriate.. no more..
so went nan chiau juz now in the afternn wif my botak head.. guess probably about evryone except the new security guard at the office was surprised heh? hahaha.. oh well, i said i would cut botak if italy win the world cup.. even thou its one month late, still botak is botak.. haha.. so returned the manikin.. the borrowing n returning of the manikin was done without the knowledge of mr rahim n even most ncos.. no u all should NOT learn from wad i've done.. its WRONG n no one should follow in my footsteps.. i had my reasons for doing wad i did.. i did not want to go thru any of those formalities n therefore decided without letting mr rahim noe, its okie.. if caught, at least i can say tat he wasnt involved n i'll be fully responsible for the act.. ncos to be.. remember this, do what u think is for the best of ur cadets, as long as u r capable of being responsible for any consequences of any accident.. of coz do rmb to spare a tot for ur YO n tchers.. anyway not here to tok about the manikin.. juz to mention tat i wont be coming anymore.. i wont say it was the last time i was in nan chiau.. i may still turn up in the future for random trngs or camps.. bud no, not in the capacity as an instructor anymore. no more.. time has caught up.. time to let go..
from now on evry post may be my last post.. i do not noe when i'll stop blogging or will i open a new blog n post it there n keep it private coz i hav no idea wad i'll do.. tats about all.. goodbye
