Wednesday, August 16, 2006 at 18:48
To Go After (A Girl Like You) - 50 Clockwise - Saint Gabriel's Secondary

When our eyes first met
I knew you were the one
The feelings I had for you
Could be compared to none

You are special in my eyes
Your smile warms my heart
Without even saying a word
You light up the dark

*chorus*
But I wish I knew
How to go after you
I wish I had cherished the time
And made up my mind
To go after you
*chorus*

When I saw you last week
My heart ached inside
Should have stopped you while I could
Before you walked away

Well, I had no choice
See, baby, I can explain
It is for your own sake
I don't wanna cause no pain

*chorus*

I just wanna love you, girl
Can we be togther?
Am I not good enough for you?
All I want is the truth

I don't wanna weep
For you were never mine to keep
I just wanna let you know
How much I loved you so

*chorus*

at 18:40
Gabrielites - 50 Clockwise - Saint Gabriel's Secondary

Time has passed, right before our eyes
It has been fifty years for us
The times we shared, the good and bad
We are still - still going strong

For better times, and stronger minds
To face the world, with all our faith
To build this family of Gabrielites
To serve with all - with all our hearts

*chorus*
Ga-brie-lites, together we are one
We stand proud, coz we're people with hearts
Ga-brie-lites, spirits exclaim
We stand proud, and we never look away
Never alone, if one strays away
Others will bring - bring him home this day
From our hearts, we'll guide each one along
And will never turn away
*chorus*

The teachers we thank, for being there
They are always by our side
For each day, never without a prayer
Giving us - the courage to go on
Our sons are here, and their sons too
We thank God for this school
For this family of Gabrielites
For the light - the light of our lives

*chorus*

Shaping lives, for service to God
Shaping minds, for service to Nation
Standing proud, never be in doubt
Coz we know, you're always out best

Ga-brie-lites, together we are one
We stand proud, coz we're people with hearts
Ga-brie-lites, spirits exclaim
We stand proud, and we never look away
Never alone, if one strays away
Others will bring - bring him home this day
From our hearts, we'll guide each one along
Gabrielites - for we are one

Monday, August 14, 2006 at 00:40
aim low, achieve your goals, avoid disappointment

nth much.. buy 4d nv win.. $14 gone... should hav bough liverpool beat chelsea.. odds was $3.70 at one point.. ARGHH.. losing money... qingwei my $50 please.. yipchun oso my $50.. i haven forgotten.. hahaha.. stressed.. exams reaching.. haven start.. one day behind schedule already.. going to disappear for a while.. bye people..

Friday, August 11, 2006 at 23:01
hai

kena fly rocket.. so end up nth to do.. so went to the playground there. sat there to think.. alot to think about. nowadays very xin bu zai yen.. hai.. one yr ago i tot it was bad n wanted to change it.. so i did this did that, what r the results? 5114!! hai.. its pathetic la.. no more nxt yr.. no more.. nxt yr juz make it 5000 can alr.. hundred over dollars, get back twenty cents.. hur.. hai.. forget it.. think too much on my part i guess..

so when thinking.. tot of other things too.. since too much time wad.. i guess i've sorted out what i really want.. no u'r not the one i want.. i doubt u want me either.. hahaa.. bud yea.. there's juz pretty much no chances of me being able to fulfill ur needs of being a taitai.. so ya.. its okie.. i'm still here.. i'll still be there to hold ur hands n bring u up.. when its time to let go i'll still be behind u to support u shld u fall.. we'r good.. anyway.. i guess after one big round i'm still back at here. i tot it was juz sumting tat will blow over.. somehow it hasnt.. maybe a long break will help.. i hope.. coz juz now while thinking i felt tat it wasnt over yet.. i tot it was.. i wanted it to be.. it should be.. bud maybe its not yet.. its okie.. wont mention anymore here.. its inappropriate.. no more..

so went nan chiau juz now in the afternn wif my botak head.. guess probably about evryone except the new security guard at the office was surprised heh? hahaha.. oh well, i said i would cut botak if italy win the world cup.. even thou its one month late, still botak is botak.. haha.. so returned the manikin.. the borrowing n returning of the manikin was done without the knowledge of mr rahim n even most ncos.. no u all should NOT learn from wad i've done.. its WRONG n no one should follow in my footsteps.. i had my reasons for doing wad i did.. i did not want to go thru any of those formalities n therefore decided without letting mr rahim noe, its okie.. if caught, at least i can say tat he wasnt involved n i'll be fully responsible for the act.. ncos to be.. remember this, do what u think is for the best of ur cadets, as long as u r capable of being responsible for any consequences of any accident.. of coz do rmb to spare a tot for ur YO n tchers.. anyway not here to tok about the manikin.. juz to mention tat i wont be coming anymore.. i wont say it was the last time i was in nan chiau.. i may still turn up in the future for random trngs or camps.. bud no, not in the capacity as an instructor anymore. no more.. time has caught up.. time to let go..

from now on evry post may be my last post.. i do not noe when i'll stop blogging or will i open a new blog n post it there n keep it private coz i hav no idea wad i'll do.. tats about all.. goodbye

Sunday, August 06, 2006 at 23:58
121st post

at this very moment, it shall end.

no more blogging. goodbye people.

the end.

at 19:13
hur..

chun leong, u'r damn bloody useless.

do not compare.

hai.

Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 00:36
3 years on.

firstly, today went bloodbank at outram to 'tour'.. den finished tat time donated blood.. end up only me n wg donate nia.. to be very truthful to all of u who read my blog, it does NOT hurt at all.. no sacarism or anyting, it seriously doesnt hurt coz got local anaesthetic.. so ppl once u've reached 16yrs of age u can print the consent form for ur parents to consent den proceed down to outram park HSA building to donate blood k? very fast one.. arnd 30mins to 45mins nia.. n if u'r 18 or above no need print the consent form.. bring ic or sch ezlink oso for identfication.. hahaha.. n plz weight above 45kg.. yes there's a weight limit.. too thin canot take.. n if they test n find ur blood haemoglobin too low oso canot.. bud juz go try lar.. its meant to save lives..

so 3yrs on now, no amount of regrets can make up for wad i did. no amount of donating blood can make me feel beta for wad i did. i made a mistake. a mistake tat i shldnt hav made. i'm sorry but there's nth i can do to reverse tat mistake. i m indeed very regretful tat i commited tat mistake. hai. its okie. its meant to be part of my life. tis date is meant to be remembered by myself as the date i did someting terribly wrong.

so juz now was reading my classmate's blog. went search the history to look for wad she posted abt wad happened last yr. for those who still do not noe, there was a major conflict last mid july n early aug.. so i guess i aint really wad i tried to let others c myself as.. my jokes n humourous comments maybe dun suit evryone ba. kinda sad. i guess some tings tat she mentioned abt me is true ba. bud at tat point of time all i tot was tat i was juz making it a joke so tat i will not seem so dead n serious to them, and yet i was assumed as arrogant.. to be true, its not the first time others hav said tat i'm arrogant.. i guess i m la.. i'm proud n arrogant.. i like to show off wad i achieved n etc.. yeah its not a desirable trait. bud i guess i lack the self-discipline to keep all tis in mind. if i were to be gg thru evryting tat i wana say in my mind b4 i eventually say, i'll really be limited to very little words n take a long time to speak.. n to those tat i dun really treat as fren, i dun bother to tok crap wif them. i juz keep quiet n really tink alot of the consequences b4 i open my mouth.. i really dun wish to be doing such tings wif ppl i consider to be okie wif my style n end up making others fed up.. of the 3 i tot she was the one i could probably click the best. the other i tot she was the one tat i could speak of all kinds of tings wif n wif trust. the last one was n is still one whom i cant accept coz of her behavior n attitude.. the one i trusted wasnt to be trusted.. the one i tot i clicked well wif is the one wif the most hatred for me.. seriously there's alot for me to reflect about now.. no doubt the posts could hav been when she was fuming mad n feeling all so angry about.. it might not be rationally correct or wad.. bud so did i tot tat they were at fault when i was really down n out at tat period.. maybe its juz the emotions.. really have to reflect.. really.. maybe i shld go copy paste down wad she typed n save in my com so tat i can from time to time remind myself of wad others had tot of me.. i m a person who is VERY concerned wif wad others tink of me. i care alot about comments and critisms... i find it hard to swallow my pride n keep my achievements to myself.. i m seriously one hell of a failure in terms of character.. i m a "da nan ren" (chavanistic?) n i m very inflexble wif the way tings work... i love to tell others tat i'm talented n so on.. u tink i really tink so?? hur.. i juz say coz i feel tat it makes me seem humourous, n yet i guess evryone tinks i'm more arrogant den humourous wif tat comment.. maybe shutting up i the best option for me.. no comments, no misunderstandings, no interpreting of my character, best of all no need to socialise n entertain ppl... really seriously wondering if my current handling of the situation is correct.. i condemns her, i cant stand her character n attitude anymore, and yet i hav to continue to work wif her for at least another 4 months.. i dunoe how long i can last bud i very much doubt it will last till the end.. bud i guess sooner or lata she will oso cant stand me for keep showing attitude problem n ignoring her n she'll go join her "new" clique.. go la go la.. make me look odd la.. kick out from one clique, join another clique.. den tis clique evry sem one member less.. less den now gg to left me alone here den the other 4 juz now appear as a "new" clique.. haha.. joke.. maybe i shld juz live in isolation sumday.. i guess the days in st gabs didnt help much to my social life eh.. primary sch alr so dun tok to others.. den sec sch oso nv tok much only to soccer frens.. den now poly after yr1 seriously gg to hav no1 to tok to anymore.. nadia i understand ur efforts bud its juz weird la.. for me to go join u all now or nxt sem.. 3 cliques in 2yrs.. if someone told me tat i'll seriously tink tat guy has a big problem.. hahaha.. defer sch?? dun tink its an option.. no financial backing.. hahaha.. wad else can i do? oh i can always isolate wad... it isnt tat difficult.. n i can be training for my jungle days if i do end up achieving my dream of gg off to some jungle to live there.. haha.. hai.. its a long struggle till the end of poly... i noe i aint in the worst situations, bud do noe tat i understand its not easy at all...

wif tat i shall end here.. pretty lot of comments of myself.. as for the ting i did 3yrs ago, do not ask me wad it is.. coz u all will not like to noe it.. juz ignore tat portion k.. hahaha.. goodbye people. goodbye frens.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006 at 19:12
going, going, gone.

okie.. so i've moved. congrats to those who hav made it here by tis time. hahaha.. anyway just to kick tings off, lets tok about y i moved.. there's not much of a reason actually.. i juz felt like moving.. tot the doyouwantmyhelp tingy was rather the corny.. so moved.. hahhaha.. oh well.. i may move again or i may set up another one tat will be private.. coz there r certainly alot of tings tat i do not say out here... enuf about moving...

so haven been updating tis past wk or so abt the tings i've done.. i've mostly forgotten thou.. hahhaa.. hai.. fyp is one fcking pos.. do wif a mf nvm.. still must keep redoing coz cant get the pcr to be proper.. HAI.. heck.. nxt wk thur n fri go back sch do since i so free.. hahhaa.. exams coming.. 18th, 22nd n 25th.. gone.. heard tat day tat papa book chalet on 21st n 22nd for sister bday.. ala.. how to go?? hahaha.. den 24th she gg to england alr.. tink not gg to send her off tis time le.. nxt day got EXAM lar.. hahhaa.. holidays do wad?? more or less fyp whole day den teach qw once or twice a week n rot ba.. nxt tue got OC presentation den either wed or thur gg cut hair ba.. like i said, i will cut botak.. who ask italy win world cup.. sumore now so many footballers oso botak lar.. even FERNANDO TORRES oso botak le.. copycat sia.. copy my cannavaro.. hai.. lampard i tink oso botak.. mourinho oso botak.. hahhaa.. gg join them.. oh ya.. holz got to really start excerising n losing weight.. coz botak den wear wad oso fat.. den sumore NS another half a yr nia.. gone.. den dunoe la.. stupid class.. ytd ask them donate blood abt half ran off say need do OC presentation.. hai.. end up get 6 tubes nia.. gone.. dunoe how la.. still short of at least 34 more samples.. yr3s disappointing.. get arnd 20 so far nia lar.. hai.. bud the angela n farhain wan nxt sem den take blood again.. mad.. how to finish so many pcr n gels in 2wks when we now alr having problem wif the pcr n gel?? hai.. HAI... c how la...

today is the 1st of aug.. tis friday is the 4th of aug.. if they r having trng most probably will b gg down.. got impt mission oso.. den after tat nxt wk or when gotta complete my impt mission den after tat most probably not gona appear le.. sec3s hopefully u all can maintain wadeva i've started wif alpha.. coz no quality for awhile still nvm.. must at least let them dun feel tat they'r wasting their time at the trngs... all the best ba.. n seriously for wad posts u all will be getting, i hav no idea.. its no longer my world, i no longer decide anyting.. so hope all of u can accept wadeva decision is made n push forth the unit.. hopefully by now its no longer a case of "me, myself n my friends".. it shld be all about the unit...

wad else.. of coz there's sumting else.. bud i will not comment about tis.. coz like i said.. there r juz sum tings i cant post here.. hai.. 1 yr has past.. time for another round of reflection.. gona be busy.. tml got gems quiz n gg bloodbank at outram.. most probably will donate blood if asked.. hahhaa.. den fri got bloodbanking quiz.. nxt tue OC ppt.. following fri medmicroA exams.. den the nxt mon n fri got papers.. hai.. army army where r u??

be goal oriented.. tats wad i keep seeing in my gems notes.. hahhaa.. wads my current goal?? to go NS.. wads my long term goal?? to hav a goal.. hahaha.. tis is obviously copied from yu ching's "my dream is to hav a dream".. well.. i had many dreams.. i still hav one.. bud goals may be achieved bud dreams do not come true.. heh.. tats abt all la.. enjoy my new address ppl!! its a privellege to be here.. hahahhaa