Thursday, June 22, 2006 at 14:27
~mood~
okie.. first to tok abt sum stuffs... last nite kena chased off frm com by meimei.. den slpt arnd 2... den today wake up at 10.. online.. den tok kok wif qw n jeremy.. den went buy lunch at cp.. at first really wan go plaza buy porridge for tat gay one.. den he say no need den nv go lor.. hahaha.. den buy aust win n draw for aust vs croatia.. $10... ala.. money invested.. hahaha.. den buy liao came home.. juz now den found out tat my elder sis today coming back singapore.. hahhaa.. i still tot is 23rd.. ala.. den her flight arnd 345pm touch down ba.. dun tink gg.. no point oso.. sumore whole afternn gone if i go.. den ya la tats abt all.. hahhaa..
so was reading blogs.. sum of which i seldom go.. it seems tat there's quite a no. of ppl tats sad.. as in real sad.. hahaha.. ala.. 90% is coz of relatnships... 10% is other tings la.. oh well.. wadeva it is tats making u sad.. u dun hav to be sad.. really.. u will only be sad if u wan urself to be sad.. stop "yah yah yah" over there.. hahaha.. coz its true.. if i wan i can b VERY sad oso.. its juz tat there's not a point.. n even if i m.. wad for tell others?? i will not tell others tat i'm sad unless i noe they can help me remove the sadness yea.. hahaha.. n actually.. there's no such ting as "nowadays very sad".. nah.. mood doesnt go like tis.. mood is c time one.. c wad the tings u doing.. u can be sad.. u went out n had sum fun.. u felt happy.. u went home n had nth to do again.. u start broading over tings n get all so sad yet again... so was the fun tat u had juz surface?? no it isnt.. its juz tat b4 n after u were sad.. bud when u were happy tat time u really was happy.. i'm a person who has changed.. i no longer bother to do much acting.. tat time in sch got one guy in my class i cant really stand one.. he looking at me n "singing".. basically mouthing the words n giving retarded expressions.. 5yrs ago i would laugh or kok wif him.. bud tat day wad i did was simple.. i juz gav a sarcastic smile n looked away.. wad for act laugh wif him la.. the result oso the same wad.. he oso noe i trying to fu yan him.. so juz fuck him lar.. hahhaa.. anyway tis part is out of point.. hahhaa.. bud back to mood... seriously ppl, its time to be happy!! no doubt there'll b times when u feel real sucky n sad.. i go thru tat too.. u juz gotta get over it.. hahhaa.. its perfectly okie to cry.. nv wrong.. i was a crybaby when i was young.. i only stopped crying often when i was sec 2 or 3.. my grandmother's funeral made me realised tat i dun really hav the need to keep crying for nth.. i cried on the day she died.. tats all.. during the wake, funeral, burial.. evryone arnd crying.. i juz stood there emotionless?? oh well.. yea i miss her.. i loved her so.. well.. i cried for her alr.. does crying more makes me love her more?? nope.. of coz i do believe if my parents do pass away one day.. i will probably cry more den one day.. i mean they've been my closest since birth.. nvm tat we arent tat closed emotionally.. physically they've been wif me for 19 yrs.. tats a hell lot of time... so sorry tat i side tracked again.. hahaha.. anyway.. yea.. cheer up ppl.. having others tell u not to cry, cheer up, look on the bright side is TOTALLY not as efficient as u urself telling urself to cheer up.. coz its ur life, ur emotion, ur mood, U DECIDE. tats abt all for mood la.. hahhaa
juz to mention it in passing.. i m aware of the dispute tats gg on currently.. okie.. fine.. i was aware of it rather late.. hahaha.. bud still.. i chose to keep quiet.. act like dunoe.. or dun say anyting.. its not becoz i m afraid i'll side who or wad.. its juz tat u all hav grown.. 2.5yrs since u entered secondary sch.. time to do tings by urself.. u all hav tis dispute, u all settle it... nevertheless i will step in n help if u all tink the situation requires me to.. i hav no problem wif helping u all sort it out.. bud i want all of u to try get it solved first.. tis is not a war.. its not a big ting.. its juz an oportunity for all of u to learn frm.. nvm if it cant be used in red cross or other stuffs.. it can be applied to future uses in life in society.. take a step back, observe... its okie to be defensive.. all humans r.. the ting is whether all of u will step back n notice tat u might hav crossed a line tat shouldnt be crossed.. all of u r 15yrs or reaching.. its a period of ur life when ur thinking flacuates.. so nv be too sure of wad u tink.. coz it'll change.. so yup.. all of u try to hav an outsider look on the situation first, den decide whether or not to step back into ur shoes.. coz "pang guan zhe qing".. ala.. tats all for now.. hope to hear good news from all of u.. hahaha
