Friday, March 31, 2006 at 00:59
the future
firstly a little paragraph abt today's title... the future.. or more specifically my future... i hav VERY little idea abt wad it will be like.. or almost TOTALLY no idea... my future job?? nah... cant c anyting meaningful from here... my last yr in poly?? tats apparently worst... it juz got worst tis afternoon... obviously there r lots of plans tat i hav no idea of n m more or less not part of... so i guess its pretty much gg to turn ugly when sch reopens?? i dunoe.. i hav enuf of such rubbish... juz so wish to tok to nasir... not coz he gives much advises... bud coz he noes wad has been gg on all along... haiz.... fucked up... GEMs oso dunoe.. nasir n et taking ettique... dun mind joining them.. bud tink its gg to be hard to register for tat.. ala fuck sia... retarded scheme... juz make do without it lar.. dunoe lar dunoe lar... do GEMs alone again lar... total 4 gems 3 do alone.. so fun.. hahhaa.. get to hav 2hrs of peace in classroom per week.. fucked up... den the best still got to go to fyp.. heard is can 2 or 3 person.. can even do wif other stage people... problem is there's no1 on my mind as to can do wif one lar... anyway oso dunoe wad to believe... juz wait n wait lar... wait for sch reopen wait for sumone to come explain the bloody tingy lar... noone come best... i juz ignore... 8 credit units only mah... since i oso given up gg U long ago... no point studying so much la... come out do the same old ting.. tis line is definately not for me unless all i wan is a job tat brings money... meaningful job?? tats juz a dream... who noes... maybe i will even die b4 i get the chance to do anyting.. hahhaa.. sad life... a life where the future is full of shit n blocking all forms of light.. hahhaa.. seriously will consider living in sum jungle... like the Lost 2 tat guy in the hatch.. hahhaa.. joke... so much for the purpose of life... to tink i tot mine was to help others find theirs... ha ha.. wad a bloody joke... ala fuck la....
so back to routine life... cant rmb where i stopped in my last post bud tink basically evryday the same one lar... den treated clar on tue?? i tink so... mos burger.. den work den go home... wed oso go work den come home.. spent $15 at s'pore pools ytd... $5 on milan beat lyon.. end up nil-nil.. gone... den $5 on italy win world cup n $5 on argentina win world cup.. gotta wait til early july den can collect winnings IF i win.. bud if both oso super early knock out den i lppl liao lar.. hahhaa.. den today took off to go nchs... coz tot is full dress rehearsal mah.. den actual day canot make it so juz go down c c lor.. end up is half dress bud rc full dress coz gals no half u... got nth to say... den still must write leta giv ginny foo tml to say i took leave... retarded la.. forget the format liao.. lata anyhow write... den went nchs parade go thru 2 rnds.. the last 2 contingents can juz fuck off lar... useless squads... the npcc beta wake up their idea oso... march till like tat.. wan wear their no. 1?? dun disgrace it lar... wan wear den make sure u'r up to the standard la huh... den after tat sectional trng really fos.. juz playing arnd.. seriously undstnd y i must leave sia... if not i'll be juz wasting the cadets' time lar.. den dunoe y end up tok wif mr rahim so long abt the parade procedure... den arnd 645 or 7 den leave.. go cp eat kfc.. tat mf qw beta watch out.. act retarded sumore.. spill chilli sauce on my jeans... best sia... den rotted till 950 leave cp.. den decided take cab if not canot make it in time watch lost.. hahaha.. so spent $3.80 on cab.. tat qw not same way den tat kw wan go appreciate the stars so ownself take lor... hahhaa.. den reached home still got time to change n get ready for lost.. hahaha.. watched finished n eat finished supper den online lor.. lata gg write the leta first.. dun wan leave til tml morning.. if not no time write i sure die... den tats abt all la.. msn nic now is rang wo xin dong de ren.. song by lin jj... dunoe the lyrics oso la.. hear a few words only.. hahhaa.. bud got nth to put as nic le mah.. maybe if can tink of new nic den lata change lor... juz tot of one.. "owner of ala".. hahaha.. c how lar.. hahhaa..
anyway noticed tat evrytime i got alot of tings i wan put down in my blog so tat i can recall in future bud evrytime i come till blogger i forget wad i wan put le.. for eg.. now.. hahhaa.. juz now bathing got quite a few tings one leh.. now all totally cant rmb.. bloody hell... ala.. go liao la... very sian... faster write leta den go slp liao.. hahaha.. nites...............................................
Tuesday, March 28, 2006 at 00:21
bad diagnosis
n so i m back.. back b4 my 1wk break ended.. hahaha.. guess pyschatrist tan couldnt predict wad was to happen on sunday.. hahaha.. ala.. so i happened to be better rite now den i was on sat/sun... anyway went gym on sunday afternoon wif jeremy... okie!! first new yr resolution tat i reached... my weight is now OFFICIALLY 99.10kg!!!! 2 digit!!!! after so long.......... hahhaa.. most probably by now is back at 3 digit but its not official till i get to tat weighing machine again.. hahaha... den at gym did nth much la.. legs aching den body no energy juz do abit here n there den saw don, kelvin chee, nicholas ho n gerald.. hahaha.. sad.. all 4 gg pes A.. den now all chionging waiting for april go in.. hahhaa.. den mw gg soon oso... sad... another soccer player gone.. at least jeremy coming out soon... dunoe he will kena 9 to 5 not.. haha.. den after gym went eat the curry rice at the shop downstairs den came home.. played fm.. watch tv.. slp.. of coz sumting happened inbetween tat apparently pyschatrist tan dint forsee.. hahaha.. no1 did.. bud it happened.. hahhaa.. fos la... juz let me crap wif myself ppl... hopefully the way i interprete it isnt the wrong interpretation... hahhaa.. isit?? lol... den today morning go clarice hse there take bus to hougang den go work.. work go immuno liao.. den did despatch, spinning, loading samples n filing lor.. nth liao.. bud at least i feel happier at tis department.. hahaha.. den juz now take bus halfway alite papa drive home.. watched grey anatomy.. lata shld be playing fm.. hahhaa.. den tml go cp treat clarice for her bday... den go work... shld be treating mos burger.. hahaa.. i offered swenson bud she tinks i got no money so mos lor.. ahhahhaa.. den tats abt all la... really feel the gap wif the unit liao... got ndp n syf i oso dunoe.. hahhaa.. go newspaper i oso dunoe.. must wait wen guang tell me den i noe.. hahhaa.. sad la... tink the whole episode very saddening.. hahhaa.. anyway my PC n PRSM how the parade coming along liao?? keep me updated leh.. sumore now the 'jokes' gay blog closed down liao... u dun faster update me i paoto u ah.. hahhaha
Sunday, March 26, 2006 at 11:15
a visit to the doctor
so went play soccer after work ytd.. at pl.. finished walked to srjc there the cheers buy newpaper den come home.. damn tired..
n so pyscologist tan advises a one week break from anyting.. so ppl dun look for me unless u feel its neccessary.. thanks.
Friday, March 24, 2006 at 01:02
dreams dun come true
so went kkh ytd.. had went to work earlier coz i had to leave early mah... den starting did not much.. despatch... den run machine.. n nth else.. hahaa.. left arnd 5 went eat le took 147... crowded.. n i fell aslp.. wake up at dunoe where n felt shld hav overshot le so alited when i saw a NEL sign.. den raining damn heavily.. den the mrt station need walk a short distance... so wait at bus stop.. den was tinking wan take cab not.. lucky i din.. if not go so early waste my money.. so walked to the station when rain smaller den found out is farrer park.. not tat far la.. took to little india den walked over.. reached tat time too early so went toilet explore their toilet bowl first.. den after tat go mac sit there listen song wait for them arrive... den after tat go up c jamie.. i oso nv say anyting la.. so many ppl liao.. me tat one sentence oso wont make much diff.. juz wana c how she doing.. so after tat went to mac eat.. thanks nurul for tat one dollar for the mcflurry.. take it as paying me the m&ms k? hahaha... den walk to mrt take to srgn.. coz from srgn take bus home faster mah.. den end up i come out of mrt station den find tat abit too early n abit sian... dunoe wan wait at tis side for 70 or the opposite for 103.. so end up juz walk the whole 103 route... from srgn to kenny hse there.. the place 156 turn to sengkang.. den frm there took bus home.. 4 stops.. hahaha.. didnt put on my specs when walking home.. took off oso dunoe y put juz felt like doing so.. den walking tat time only can c the headlights... other tings all very blur... cant be bothered either.. anyway even if a car veers out of direction n bang into me i oso nvm one.. coz i've reached more den half of my goal le.. the remaining few mostly is due to family.. other den tat i'm all set to let go of my life.. hahaha.. doesnt mean i'll end it thou.. bud if its ended sumhow den i'm okay wif it.. at least i noe there'll be ppl to visit my wake.. since jamie hospitalised end up like unit gathering i believe my wake shldnt be tat empty ba.. hahaha.. den walk tat time evryting so blur.. evryting so unclear.. guess tats how life is supposed to be for me.. since there isnt much i can correct tat except wearing my specs.. hahaha.. so if i wana clear my life i'll hav to wan to do it.. juz the same as wanting to put on my specs.. den today go work.. morning wake up late.. hahaha.. 11 den wake up.. sad.. den rush out den go work.. work liao take bus home.. coz clarice go chalet so ownself go home.. den quite early reached home le.. haha.. den online crapped wif lindar n kw... den went bath juz now.. now online.. today did nth much at work oso.. run machine n do 2 ogtt... 3 more days at biochem.. haha.. getting bored of work.. anyway tis sem results i hav gathered tat i aint done tat well as compared to others wif their last sem's results... perhaps i deserve it la.. coz i gave up at the time of exam.. ahhaha.. i basically spotted n hoped n calculated.. bud tat mf ben yang beta watch out.. gave both his immuno dist students B only.. sucker.. hahaha.. tats all la.. gg to slp den tml wake up early (hopfully) to write logbook n play FM.. gone.
thx for all the updates thus far n in future.. aint noe wad to say oso.. take care ba.. haha
anyway almost forgot to tok abt wad i realised during the walk home.. i hav realised tat i dream alot.. n all these dreams hav nv ever came true.. tat explains the title of tis post.. n the other ting tat came to me today is tat there r many times when we find certain situation so errieely familar n tats coz apparent sumhow we had "experience" it or dreamt of it b4.. its juz tat we dun rmb it n only do so when the whole ting is infront of us again.. of coz science wont be able to explain tis at tis point n tats y i believe in human mind coz there's juz sumting tat cant be explained... for the ppl who r wondering wad i m toking plz juz read tis paragraph as it is n not inbetween the lines nor tink too deep n u will get wad i mean.. hahaha
Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 09:52
time of the year
my hopes:
Metbio: B+
Molbio: B+
Patho: A
Haem: B
Envst: B
A&P2: C
GEMs: B
Estimated GPA: 3.22
reality
Metbio: A
Molbio: Dist
Patho: B
Haem: A
Envst: B
A&P2: C+
GEMs: C+
Sem GPA: 3.426
to be happy or to be sad? seriously i hav no idea... cant believe tat my patho, a&p2 n GEMs did so badly... wif fyp looming... haiz..... dunoe wad to say sia...
anyway... jamie was admitted to hosp last nite... so lata maybe gg to ask gennie foo if i can take the latter part of the day off den go visit her... hope evryone recovers soon...
Monday, March 20, 2006 at 22:20
n so the pieces start to fall together
so last fri went work... did juz the running of samples on the machines.... den oso dispatch... den went off at arnd 910... rushing.. hahaha.. den reached campsite arnd 1030 i tink... they still "slping"... den go inside the operations room sit there listen to all the briefing n stuffs... den after tat went for the nite walk... den walk tat time no mood to smile or anyting.. juz keep maintaining a straight face.. hahaha.. even when tat lindar say hello to me tat time i only nod my head back.. almost wanted to laugh.. bud dint.. hahaha.. den go back den cadets went to get pumped while yc ownself get pumped up.. den tot to him abit abt life.. abt a 2yrs logic... coz apparently he din c the need to be pumping the cadets at a time when he felt slping was better... bud well... 2yrs ago he was the one in ph's shoes while zy was in his shoes.. hahaha.. told him abt human having to try n make the mistake b4 they will learn n not juz by listening to other ppl's past experiences... guess he was pretty burnt out at tat time oso... den after tat cadets went to slp... i walked arnd.. bathed... lie at canteen while the ncos ate.. den when all left to slp i went to the cadets' tents there... got 5... i sit the middle there.. bud not the kerosine there lar... ahhaha.. den sit n listen song for arnd 1hr plus... my tinking is campsite the gate quite the big lar.. lata wake up cadets missing or kena eaten by dogs how.. hahaha.. so sit there "look after" them... den arnd 4 felt too tired.. n was tinking how i will die the next day at work if i whole nite no slp so went canteen slp on table.. den rh n deb at the parade sqr c stars mah.. so ask them look after cadets n oso wake me up at 5... end up slp halfway my hp drop!!! fucking DROP!!!! den sad lar... keypad abit spoil.. den i still slpy.. so anyhow try to fix... den after tat still haven fully undstnd wads wrong the hx walk to parde sqr n collaspe there.. hahhaa.. den the rh ask me go help them carry her... wah lan.. i already so sad tat my hp spoil.. hahaha..den went carry her to 2nd floor toilet.. cradle carry.. she not heavy la... if is jy or jamie maybe will hav problem.. hahaha... den put her at the cubicle door there den go out of toilet le.. den the px oso woke up wif problem.. hahaha... den c here c there... den the jamie at first wake up pei dunoe which one den deb ask her go back slp.. den b4 tat jiaxian got wake up complain stomachache oso... bud went back slp after shitting.. den got fmss ppl oso complain... so i tot maybe really die liao.. camp kena food poisoning... so go wake ph up.. den he wake up put on specs look at me den go back slp.. 2 times.. ahhaha.. i oso bu hao yi shi force him wake up.. so left.. hahaha.. den after tat nth to do so went tell yc oso.. den he at least woke up say sum "say equals nv say" tings den go back slp.. hhahaa.. so in the end juz monitor their conditions... den walk arnd tents n the building.. in case deb n rh need help mah.. afterall whole camp only we 3 awake.. hahaha.. den morning they wake up tat time i c the pt awhile den go mia le.. at first wan do pt wif them.. bud c the tings they do i oso dun wan do liao.. hahaha.. so went to slp i tink... slp till arnd 9 plus den the ncos came up mah.. den ask them bring me the french toast to eat.. ahahha.. or isit i ate le den slp?? i oso forget le.. ahhaha.. den jj brought arnd 10 pieces up.. sumore at tat time the fmss YOs dun wan us to eat the food yet.. coz they scared is the egg problem... bud in the end i juz eat la... den after tat i noe i got slp.. bud i tink oso awhile la.. den wake up i rmb got hotdogs.. hahaha.. the gals brought up for the julian n weilin one.. den i sit at the bed there stone quite long.. tat 2 stone even longer den stand up n move.. ahhaha.. den go change clothes den go pack up le.. den b4 tat dunoe when i got bath again... the water damn cold.. like connect from the water cooler like tat.. hahaha.. den went put my tings at ops room den walk arnd to c c awhile more... den went help them cook the porridge... tink is the grain fault lar.. hahaha.. den after tat went said good bye to the camp ppl.. den went off.. reached bus stop look at the estimated bus arrival times... need wait 10 mins.. den over there calculating my travelling time to work.. end up i early by 30mins.. hahhaa.. so went back campsite.. den go back saw peixuan at the sofa there dying.. so sit there pei her awhile lor.. basically she sit there die i sit there listen song.. ahahha.. den after tat went walking arnd again.. ahhaha.. den finally left n went to work.. den at work do the same tings again... till 5 plus den went home... go home oso forgot wad i do.. i tink i slpt... den sunday did nth except play com den afternoon go plaza teach qw maths... evening went home den slack arnd again... today go work.. did same old tings again.. hahaha.. nth much la.. den nth liao lor... sian... gg watch grey's anatomy soon...
juz knew sum stuffs abt tat jokes guy.. mf... keep for so long.. hahahaha.. he beta watch out.. dun let me say out unpurposely.. hahahha.. n tats the reason for my title for tis post.. tats abt all.. plattoon B ppl, its been a bad camp experience for the latter part of the camp.. sorry abt it bud well.. its not my camp.. hahaha.. i was there at the camp juz as a guest.. tats y i din do anyting.. hahaha.. den plattoon B ppl drink more water n rest more... recover soon ah.. if possible i expect u all to go for wed's rehearsal.. ahhahaha.. jk.. if canot den nvm la.. anyway tis camp i only decided to go one week b4hand... din wanted to tell any1 except kw n qw since i told them i not gg b4 i decided mah.. den other den tat only yc n ph noe i tink... juz wanted to be able to provide u ppl wif sum positives at a time i tink sum of u may be down... hahhaa.. tats abt all la.. gone.
Friday, March 17, 2006 at 00:29
its a bad bad day
ytd went early to go queensway... end up buy a shorts for $12.. come home try den discovered canot fit... oso cant be bothered to go change.. juz asked my bro he wan not den giv him.. hahhaa.. doubt he will wear oso.. lol... den last day at micro ytd.. did nth much... juz sensi in the afternoon den nite do abit of stool n the cultures.... den today go micro.. early morning went srgn cut hair den came home bath den go work.. due to communication breakdown wif the barber.. now the hair like shit.. hahaha.. its juz long GI.. sucker... hahaha.. den work today go biochem department.. bloody sad.. starting nth to do.. the fat lady ask me go dispatch help.. den after tat go back she teach me the machine how to operate.. can die sia.. so fast paced... den sat tink i gg to die.. ahhaha.. lack of slp how to do... den stood all the way today lar... den went eat dinner.. ate prata nia. coz very bloated.. den bought banana milk 1L to drink.. hahaha.. den nite did machine again.. den learnt the G6PD screening n oso urine test for drugs... stressed lar... tink i wont enjoy my time at biochem... haiz.... already so depressed den juz now still like tat... bloody hell... fine... i may hav a big ego problem... i guess tats part of me... just ignore me if u wish in the future... once again another communication breakdown.. tings juz didnt went as i had wished they would... so juz finished reading sumbody's blog... not the current posts... nth much to read abt.. read from the beginning of tat blog... no, its not urs elaine.. hahaha.. i've been following urs all along so no need one shot read all... guess the older posts were nice to read... as it got nearer n nearer to half a yr ago.. i guess i juz got bored n oso sadded... hahhaa.. haiz.... certain tings r juz not meant to be... i guess its beta to forget abt tis dream sooner rather den lata... coz it'll always remain as a dream... there'll be lots of tings to remind me of tis dream.. bud its juz temporary... i'll be fine... n in case u'r wondering if its u i'm mentioning... if u had recieved my sms at 1 plus am den its u.. hahaha.. anyway there's lots of songs tat reminds me of ppl who've been part of my life... so below r sum tat i can rmb.. n the reasons y the song reminds me of tat particular person... n most of the songs lyrics do NOT play much part in it....
ling meng cao de wei dao - yu ching
can still rmb is during a red cross camp back in st gabs when yu ching was constantly repeating tis song over his hp thruout the camp... tis song reminds me of the camp n of yu ching.. of the times we spent crapping after cadets hav gone to slp n of the times we slpt at any location tat we could make do wif.. n tat includes almost evrywhere except the toilets.. hahaha...
qing fei de yi - clarice
apparently tis sound only recently got paired wif u... no its not for the title nor the lyrics.. hahhaa.. its only coz there was once for 2 days in a row tis song was played when we were listening to my hp on 153 n i was really worried tat u might tink i purposely played tis song.. hahahhaha.. of coz i believe u aint tat dumb.. bud yea.. its currently paired wif u...
jian ao - pik xuan
tis is perhaps rather surprising for most ppl bud yea.. tis song has been paired wif u for a long long time... since first aid com o4?? when we went to suntec n u brought ur bro's mp3 along.. den i listening on the journey there mah.. den heard tis song bud tat time still dunoe is wad song.. den after sum time came into contact wif tis song again n realised it was the song i heard from ur bro's mp3.. hahaha..
never be replaced - nurul
not much of reasons... mainly juz becoz u used to use tis song as ur blog song n ur posts at tat time were all rather long n i took a long time reading them n tis song kept repeating itself... hahhaa.. so when i recently came into contact wif tis song it reminded me of u n ur blog.. hahaha...
ta hai shi bu dong - elaine
u shld noe y its tis song if ur memory isnt tat bad.... some 1 n 3 fifth yr back u dissected tis song's lyrics n used them as ur blog posts' titles... so i guess tat sumhow linked tis song to u in my mind.. hahaha.. tat period was b4 ur rainbow came yea?? hahaha.. when u havent/juz told ur then-bf tat u were gg for the op... hahaha.. oh well.. u've comed a long way since then... keep moving.. dun look back for too long coz of tis post.. hahahha...
ye qu - jiayi
main reason is coz u used tis song as ur blog song b4... n i guess it had a rather lasting impression on me... other reason include me wanting to find a song to pair wif u coz apparently u deserve a song while tis song is a song tat i juz cant get tired of... oh well...... ppl who r jealous stop the ooOOos n aaAhhhHss... u all wan can let me noe n i'll find a song for u all too.. hahaha...
zui hou de zhang yi - derren
sumhow against all odds u will not get to c tis post at all.. hahaha.. bud nevertheless tis song belongs to u coz still can rmb i went to find yu ching when he was still at ur hse n i watched the making of tis MV there.. so all the machine gun sounds etc all reminds me of u n ur room n hse... hope u'll get ur life in order soon.. can c ur bro's life gg haywired as well.. hahaha.. its a sad case... i guess ppl who noe u will undstnd y i hang arnd wif qw so often last yr... not coz u both smoke.. hahaha.. suckers... btw.. hanging arnd wif u all doesnt mean i agree wif wad u all r doing... its juz tat i'm not a government n i do not impose tings... i can only advice.. hahaha.. plz note tat in no way m i shooting any governments...
yi ran shi peng you - mandy
reason for tis pretty obvious... u were the one who intro tis song to me.. so obviously it links me to u... anyway u r really a bloody sucker.. ask u bus journey take how long u tell me u not sbs bus guide.. sucker... oh well.. juz wana let u noe tat its not tat i've walked away.. its juz tat i've became more n more invisible... whether or not i play any part of ur life is up to u... u sms me, i will surely reply......
suo yi - li ning
tis song the lyrics used to hold alot of meaning for the reason y its linked to u.. bud by now the reason has faded wif time n the only reason y its still linked to u is coz of the impact tat it has left... the lyrics no longer makes any sense... it isnt n it wont.. bud guess the song will juz be linked to u...
currently cant recall anymore song-ppl pairings... may hav left out some by forgetfulness... no hard feelings.. i aint a computer tat can store tings infinately.. so yea... tats abt all i hav to say.. its been a bad bad day.... nites
note: certain tings i m aware of, its juz tat i rather evryone tinks tat i'm unaware of.. tat way, i'll be spared of pretty much problems... tis note goes to a certain sumbody not mentioned in any sense so far in my blog.. hahhaha
Wednesday, March 15, 2006 at 00:30
r u the one
okie... monday wake up go work.. went clar hse there den took bus to hougang den take 153... go work at micro inside wif ana whole day.. hahaha.. starting she ask me do sum stock check.. den ask me type out in excel.. like clerk like tat.. hahaa.. den after tat she teach me sensitivity test... plate the bacteria on agar den put the antibiotic disks... den after tat teach me culture... urine culture need maconkey, blood, CLED agar plates... plus MH plate... den swabs, usually HVS, need maconkey, blood, chocolate agar plates... hahaha.. ya chocolate... plus SDA plate oso... den stool (shit) culture need XDL and maconkey agar plates.. sad... den did stool occult blood oso... den nth le... ended abt 845.. first time.. hahha.. den came home... watch grey's anatomy den slpt... wake up today bath n get ready... den change my shoe the lace... coz still tight.. den end up rushing.. n miss the connecting 153... so went alone.. ahhaha.. den reached le go again same as ytd.. bud today ana she come late.. coz she go do her PR tingy.. den the eng yaw n aries go lunch... left me alone inside.. dunoe wad to do oso.. ahhaha.. den all anyhow do.. did sensi n cultures... den after tat did stool den went makan.. come back do culture n stools again... n oso gram staining... forgot mention swabs need to do slide for gram staining... den HVS need do wet mount oso.. den 9 left... take bus home... watched epl highlights juz now.. now blog den slp le.. today eng yaw's last day.. he gg taiwan den dunoe where.. cant be bothered to noe oso.. ahhaha.. den today stuning sia.. ate one proper meal nia.. breakfast nv really eat.. lunch oso nv.. den ate a slice of cake eng yaw bought at arnd 4 plus.. den 5 plus ate dinner.. den came home ate sum leftovers n soup.. ahhaha.. dunoe can evryday like tat not.. ahhaha.. den tml gg to go early.. go queensway wif clar first.. those 2 "jokes" n "aba" last sunday tua me.. actually more specifically is the "jokes" gay.. ahhaha... so tml go lor.. c can find any shorts n track pants n shoes tat r cheap not.. ahhaha.. den nth much liao... shld be gg slp le.. not gg play FM.. hahaha..
i got really tired today in the bus gg to work.. i felt exhausted... from wad? i oso dunoe.. hahaha.. juz mentally n physically tired... maybe i shld take tis sunday to stay home n slp all day.. ahhaha.. anyway i'm waiting for adriano to get voted out.. ahhaha.. spastic ass... i juz made tis statement to get response in my tagboard.. hahahha
Sunday, March 12, 2006 at 22:38
dumb door
okie... back to update... fri work... work do urine n shit.. hahaha.. den after work rush home to watch survivor.. missed the first 20 mins.. bloody shit.. den sat morning go mw hse pass him soccer ball.. after tat go work.. do rpr n urine.. den 5.30 end go srgn.. den coz raining soccer postphone to 730... end up all 8 den come... den play till 10 go home... den today morning go out play pool wif kw n qw... sad.. only won once.. ahhaha.. den go eat jack place... $92... nth to say.. hahaha.. at least no need worry abt presents liao.. den go out tat time open door... close door tat time thumb kena kiap... nth to say.. till now still numb.. tink can amputate liao.. hahaha.. den after tat go home... slp... nite wake up play fm eat.. den tink gg back slp soon... sian.. results out in 2wks time... stressed.. hahaha.. haiz... sian.. sian.. very sian.. tml dunoe how to die... thumb like tat.. ahhaha... tats all la....
sad la sad.. the distance is growing... tink i'll be gg into hibernation soon... zzzzzzzz..............................
Friday, March 10, 2006 at 00:16
the end of my RCY journey
Thursday, March 09, 2006 at 23:37
n there goes my ten dollars
bloody arsenal... still say wan attack... wad shit is tat sia... end up nil nil.. hahhaa.. last nite oso nv really watch... fell aslp den woke up sumtime in the 2nd half n watch till the end lor.. hahaha.. nth really nice la... lol... den today wake up too early so go lewlian eat first... ate charsiew rice again.. 2nd meal in a row considering i skipped breakfast.. hahaha.. den go work... label the test tubes at the begining... den pour urine the whole afternoon... joker sia.. they say dun wan me keep do the RPR coz like repeative n nv learn anyting... bud i c i at urine there oso keep pouring the urine nia.. oso nv do anyting else so how much can i learn there?? hahaha.. tml last day at urine... sat gg to do the more high class one.. the shits n stuff tingy... got alot of staining n agar plating to do.. die liao.. my yr1 microbio prac always fail the datasheets one lar.. ahhaha.. sad... tink i gg to hate microscopes... hahaha.. den after work came home alone.. sum stingy ppl wan to enjoy gg home early while she still got the chance.. ahhahaa.. den lata either go slp den tml wake up earlier play FM or now play FM den slp till tml wake up go work again.. ahhaha.. sian!! lol... nth much to say liao la... haiz... sad la sad la.. really very sad la... my life is so so sad....
i dun believe in love much.. i dunoe how to put it bud juz understand tat i'm single for a reason... reason is simple... i cant n i wont comit to anyting at tis stage of my life.. ahhaha.. tis paragraph directed to who?? no1... juz stating my observation about myself.. ahahaha
at 00:57
#$%#@^!%& referee
stupid referee la... so lame lar... tat tackle not worth a penalty lor.. sumore so many chelsea ppl offside liao... n giv for wad.. score or dun score chelsea still out wad... cfm is match fixing one lar... fucker.. make me win $9.35 become lost $5... ARGH!!!!! mother fucking referee!!! dun let me c u on the streets of singapore ar... hahahha.... like he will come here like tat... lol.. lata got arsenal match... hope dun let me down.. hahhaa.. last nite watch first half den got so bored tat i slpt at half time.. woke up for last few minutes end up c tat mf referee giv tat penalty... FUCK SIA!!! den went back slp morning wake up bath go out... go lewlian there take 153 den reached arnd 1235... den work... today did RPR at first.. den after tat they decided i do 2days of RPR enuf le... shld do 3 days of urine n 4 days of shit.. hahhaha.. so went to do urine.. nth much oso.. juz pour them into the tubes let rommeal take go put at machine.. den he dropped one tube when taking n the urine spill on my pants... sad case... hahahha.. den oso no big actions... juz slowly pick up the tube all tat le den stand go take paper towel wipe.. hahhaa.. cant be bothered... urine nia.. hahhaa.. den went eat dinner arnd 430... or 1630 if u prefer... den came back do abit of RPR coz the urine there like very slack nth to do den the vicky doing RPR one dunoe MIA till where.. hahha.. den after tat arnd 8 the ana call me go in the inner lab help her... do wad? do shit.. hahhaa.. scan the shits first... den after tat she go teach me how to test... sia la... den 53 bottles of shit i need to open one by one n scope out some to test... omg... so smelly... hahaha.. den all kinds of pattern the shit oso c liao... green wif brown... dark brown n hard... wet slimy ones... those haven open bottle cap already stink like hell one oso hav... OMG... hahahha.. den do all the way til 9 den go home... took 153... alite at lewlian... wait for 103.. saw 43... den tot could take to yck road change bus lata.. forgot is wrong direction.. hahhaa.. so alite at nxt stop to take 70... end up wait so long.. hahaha.. den reached home juz now slack read newpaper lata gg to update my calender den if got time maybe go lie awhile till 330 or play FM... c how lor.. hahhaa.. scared i fall aslp.. hahhaa.. if arsenal win by 2goals or more tonite den hx ur bday present will be more appropriate.. if not den dun expect too much.. hahahha... tats abt all... heard tat the parade rehearsal was disappointing... dunoe wad else to say... maybe time for me to say FUCK IT.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006 at 00:54
barcelona v.s. chelsea (part 4 of 4)
okie!! stressed sia.. lata got match again... den watching till 0600 den go slp till 1000... hope dun oversleep if not means late for work AGAIN... hahhaa... today morning wake up den go out liao... took 153.. much faster den 147.. den reached abt 1215 coz i n clar meet at abt 11... hahaha.. den go walk walk den end up c 4d shop... so went to c the odds tingy n rmbed today got champions league! fuck sia... broke my new yr resolution for no gambling of 1 year... hahaha.. bought $5 barce win n another $5 arsenal -1.5 goals... stressed... now already 2 resolutions gone... gpa n tis one... so left the other 3... ahhaha.. den work did nth much except the RPR test again... den at the begining did some sorting at the recieving there.. den dinner today got go out eat.. hahhaa.. order wrong la.. wan chicken chop rice end up order chicken cutlet rice.. hahaha.. fc4's fault.. hahaha.. den eat liao go back chiong all the RPR den 8 plus no more le so go do the checking... looking for tubes tat went missing... den do till abt 9 den chao... took 153 to hougang change 161 den change 163... whole ting for fun.. coz i at srgn can drop n change 103 de.. hahaha.. juz pei clar lor.. den future if she go hougang n her papa drive her home den i will alight at srgn.. den if i wan rush home watch Lost 2 (starting 30th march) or Survivor den oso shld be at srgn alite.. coz can save arnd 30 to 40 mins lar.. hahaha.. den juz now called qw... asked him go check wif kw tis sunday wan go out not... maybe go queensway ba.. hahhaa.. need buy my shorts lar... my plan to go jogging evry morning b4 gg work haven put into action.. hahahaha... den will most prob go buy hx present oso den deliver to her hse after tat?? dunoe.. c how... oso dunoe their camp tingy is how.. hahaha.. bud one way or other will oso be belated present.. lol... the rest who wans bday present plz ownself come tell me ur bdate n say u wan to get me sumting on hamtaro bday if not nth ah.. hahaha.. den now nth to do most prob lata gg play FM till 0330 ba... anw the reason i use 24hr time is red cross.. hahaha.. n all those who said they cried beta dun bluff me.. ahhaha.. dun juz say say let me feel happy.. hhahaha.. nth much le ba.. tml gg srgn meet clar so tat i can slp more.. hahaha.. den tats abt all.. work's fine... the pay isnt.. hahaha.. sad... lalalala... ppl plz go find tat song n listen... thou his pronouciation not tat good bud u wan i can sing it to u.. hahahha
Monday, March 06, 2006 at 23:40
wei yi se cai
Lan se tian kong
Kan bu dong
Yi wang le cai hong
Qi che yong ji xiang xuan nao de mi feng
You shei te bie liu lian wo de mian rong
Bu guan shi jie duo jing cai
Dou kan cheng hei bai
Mei you shen me hen xin ai
Mei you shen me ke bu ai
Bu wen sheng yin de you lai
Wo shen ying gen zhe wo xiang yi wei ming
Yu wo tiao wu yao bai bu ting
Wo shi jie ji mo de feng ping lang jing
Cong lai kan bu dao mei li feng jing
Wo de hei wo de bai bian cheng zui can lan de wei lai
Cai ming bai tian yao wo deng dai yi ge ren dao lai
Bian cheng wo wei yi se cai
OOH LONELY EYES
Ni shi shen lan se de da hai
Yong xiang wo meng jing dou da kai
OOH BABY
Wo po bu ji dai
Sheng ming you le zhu zai
Xin tiao you xin de jie pai
Ni shi wo wei yi se cai
The blue of the sky,
I can't see it,
the colors are already forgotten.
A crowded car is like the noise of bees
Who is specially recalling my face with nostalgia?
No matter how splendid the world is
All I see is black and white.
There's nothing I really love
There's nothing I can't love
I don't ask where the sound is coming from
My body/shadow and I depend on each other for survival,
With me, dancing, swaying, nonstop.
My world is lonely, peaceful and stable.
From the beginning, never seen beautiful scenery.
My black, my white, have become a most resplendent future
I finally understand, heaven wanted me to wait for a person to come
And become my one and only color
OOH LONELY EYES,
You are a deep blue ocean.
Pouring into my dreamland, opening it up.
OOH BABY, I'm too impatient to wait; my life has been dominated.
My heartbeat has a new rhythm,
You are my one and only color
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Aaron Kwok - Wei Yi Se Cai
so today started attachment... met clarice at 1130 n end up late... hahhaa.. reached arnd 1315 den walk go wrong side... end up more late.. hahaha.. den tis week till nxt wed will be at microbio department... today whole day do the RPR test nia... take the blood 100microlitres put on the test card den add a drop of carbon antigen den put on the "rotator" for eight minutes... positive will hav grey granules... do whole day about 4 to 5 hundred samples none got positive.. hahaha.. so the sian.. hahhaa.. tats abt all to update la.. chaoed at 9 den clarice papa drive me to CP coz he go bring her bro go camp den on the way mah.. hahaha.. den tml gg to meet 1hr earlier so tat we wont be late.. hahaha.. anyway thanks for evryone who cried... at least tat meant i not tat hopeless.. hahaha.. tats all ba... everyone go find the above song if u dun hav it kk.. very nice song... dunoe y no1 sing in all the singing competitions.. hahahah.. if dun hav can ask from me online.. bud most prob i'll be online only after 2300 for the coming 6weeks minus sundays.. hahaha.. tats all....
Sunday, March 05, 2006 at 10:28
to NCHSRCY - june o6
okie... starting tml i'll be having my attachment... from 1pm to 9pm i tink for mon to fri n 1pm to dunoe when on sat... tml den gg cfm... so therefore i'm unable to go down to nchs anymore... probably wont do so either after my attchment.. coz yr3 liao... n its time for the unit to move on...
its been 2yrs... a long 2yrs... till now... my loves in my life only includes soccer, maths n red cross... FM n CM r juz hobbies.. hahaha.. so it'll be hard to move red cross out of my life... at least for nchsrcy it'll be harder den sgssrcy.. haha... i n yu ching has spent 2yrs in nchs... i'm glad to hav made the decision to come down to tis unit 2yrs ago... i dun regret any single moment of gg down... be it for trng or to get fly aeroplane.. it was all worth while... i've made many frens n juniors in tis 2yrs n i hope i've been able to change or direct some of tis ppl for their paths in life... i've given alot in tis 2yrs... i've nv asked for much back from u ppl... bud tis time... since i'm leaving already.. i really hope tat u all can hold a parade for me... not juz any parade.. i mean the sch anniversary parade... wad i mean is if u cant find any reason y u shld do so much for the parade... do it for me... do it for ycs... take it as a last present to us both.. do it good.. do it well... its not much to ask from u ppl i believe... its juz about being present for rehearsals n doing wad is asked of u ppl... juz dedicate the parade to us both if u wan.. we'll be more den happy to hav tat dedication from u all...
the sec5s... most of u r from my all star team... its been nice to noe u ppl n crap wif u all... apparently i prefer to keep to guys' company coz i guess i'm from a boy sch n socialising hasnt been my favorite topic... so hopefully u all will "do it or fuck it"... of coz i would prefer u all to do it... n do it well... kw... a pc is not only in charge of shouting the commands... since there's no parade coordinator tis yr so its ur duty to make sure everyting is gg smoothly... not juz the parade.. the rehearsals n stuff r all ur duties... stop saying u do ur role good enuf... as long as the parade n rehearsals r not up to standard.. u've failed ur role... understand tis... if u need help u qw, chester, mg, amira n even the ncos to ask for help from.. if u do ask.. i believe they will do it.. be serious.. grow up.. its not a time to play during tis parade...
the ncos... as wad ycs n i hav both said b4... u all hav been a disappointment... not all.. bud most... n as a whole itself... so tis parade will be one of the last few major events of ur life in rc from sec1 till 4 so hopefully i can hear good tings abt u all... i may not hav been close to ur batch tat much den the prev batch bud i really hope u all undstnd its not easy to hav to bond wif a batch in march during ldc n come the nxt march go bond to the nxt batch.. its tiring... n i aint into making frens n all.. so wadeva bonds i hav wif u all.. its all achieved not easily.. so do make full use of tis last few months for ur life in rcy n if u all wan.. correct the disappointment in me n ycs... u all might not wan to do it for me.. bud do it for ycs k.. thanks for the memories ppl...
the sec3s.. from sec 1 to sec 3... its been nice to c u ppl grow... i'm honoured n i hope tat u all will do well in ur last 2yrs in rcy... i've said b4.. i'm sorry tat i cant be wif u all for ur final journey bud i hope tat i can be of motivation to u all... really hope u all can show me wad u all hav in tis nxt 1yr n a half... currently u all still hav alot to learn... tings like being paitient wif one another n how not to lose ur cool n stuff bud i believe u ppl the bond n committment is there... its been nice to be u all the sir n i hope tat i can be there tis june for a trng tat u all plan n run n even the POP tis yr.. bud i most highlight tat i used the word HOPE.. hahhaa..
the sec2s n 1s... to the sec2s... i'm really sorry tat i've neglected u all in tis 1yr n 3months tat u all hav been part of the unit... i understand tat u all dun feel as close to the unit as u all shld be... tats y i hasnt really faulted u all much for always not wanting to come for trng or even wanting to quit.. bud i really hope tat u all can toughen it out in tis coming 1yr... of coz i look fwd to seeing u ppl when i do return for a visit n i hope tat by then.. u all hav found a reason to stay if u havent already found now... n to the sec3s... i hope tat u all can try to make it up to tis batch when u all hav taken over n all.. as for the sec1s... its been 3 trngs since i've seen u all.. the impression of u all has been good... thou there's a few who dun seem as enthu as others.. its been as much as wad one can ask from from sec1s... so hopefully u all can enjoy ur time in red cross n when i do return for the visit.. i'll try to return the pushups i owe u all.. hahahha...
wif tat... i shall end my very long dedication to the unit... once again hope tat u all can giv it ur best for the parade n do me n ycs proud.. thanks for ur 2years n all the memories u've given me... nchsrcy will always be part of me n evrytime i take the lrt n it passes by... i'll be looking out to ur sch hoping to c u all falling in n doing well... juz a last parting note... i teared last nite when i closed my eyes as voices of u ppl calling me sir echoed in my ears... i love u ppl...
feel free to look for me if u all need help in any areas... THANK YOU.
at 10:17
dead tired...
okie... so fri went down to nchs after watching survivor for my last trng... did nth except walk arnd wondering wtf is happening... hahhaa.. parade rehearsal started at 5.30... wad for... might as well dun rehearse... den after tat b4 alpha n bravo dismissed tok to them... juz briefly say good bye n stuff... den went kfc... den came home rather late coz i, kw, qw n jj was at cp eating n koking... den ytd early morning 6am go kw hse liao... after tat qw go home change den i n kw go jamie hse there... den hx came n we push the clothes tingy to sch.. it broke down halfway den became we dismantle the whole ting n carry to sch... hahaha... den lost one belt on the way.. hahhaa.. after tat jy n hx go found it la.. den reach sch den prepare prepare den went bendemeer sec for fd comp... bloody hot day.. hahhaa.. den kena fucked by a mother die sir from hq.. hahhaa.. nth to say.. only can say both parties oso got wrong.. hahaha.. den end up nv get anyting except COP so went back nchs... den go yoshi eat... tis time finally got eat... hahhaa.. den after tat they go jj hse there den i went home change first... den go jj hse there i play soccer... most of the time playing wif a guy i dunoe one... abit too kp... bud cant be bothered to attitude him back.. hahaa.. den after tat rest awhile den go off to srgn liao... reach 7 plus play soccer wif les they all.. knn tired.. hahaha.. sumore all the while playing barefoot.. den whole nite play goalie nia.. hahaa.. dun wan run much... den soccer end go mac drink n tok kok... from 10plus sit for 1hr.. hahhaa.. den i stand up wan go buy drink.. end up stand up both big thighs the front cramp... kns.. 2nd time tat part cramp in my life nia.. hahaha.. den wan sit canot sit wan walk canot walk den become standing at the table there whacking my thigh.. hahhaa.. den finally could sit down den after tat keep whacking my thighs coz if not i no need go home liao.. hahaha.. came home eat dinner read newpaper den slp liao... so tats abt all... anyway wana say to the fd comp ppl... fair or not fair... if u all won sumting den really considered not fair.. hahhaa.. bud it wasnt totally all u ppl's fault... the trng wasnt good... bud u ppl's desire to win as a squad juz wasnt as much as other units.... so yup... its fair tat we din win tis yr.. hopefully next yr u all can win it again.. i'll try not to be there next yr.. coz currently i'm a curse.. hahhaa.. both yrs i went both yrs we lost.. lol... so tats all...
Thursday, March 02, 2006 at 21:27
its over
n so its over.. finally updating after 4 days... been a long n scary 4 days.. hahhaa.. monday went to mp lib study isit?? i dunoe.. i tink so.. hahaha.. studied anp2... expecting a C... IF possible C+?? hahaha.... shit tat elango... anyway tue n wed wasted my day.. spent the latter part of ytd studying haem... lazy n lack of focus... completely gave up last nite... aiming C... den tis morning even worse... changed target to D-... hahahha.. bud the paper really bth... almost identical to last yr sem2 paper... kns... stun everyone when we open the paper... hahhaha.. den when walk out tat time aiming for B.. hahaha.. if can den B+ bud canot nvm.. since i dun really deserve it coz i only study 4chpts out of 8.. hahaha...
so below is my estimates....
Metbio: B+
Molbio: B+
Patho: A
Haem: B
Envst: B
A&P2: C
GEMs: B
Estimated GPA: 3.22
sad... my 3.5 resolution gone.. hahaha...abit the sad... bud the last 2 paper gave up on the day b4... nxt time shld start studying earlier.. hahha... n so wif tat my Year Two of Poly has ended... been an eventful year... definitely NOT looking fwd to my yr3... so so so not looking fwd to it... HAIZZZZZ....
so juz now went to nchs after my paper... reached abt 530... c them do sum drills... n so it seems the squad can coordinate well... BUT... tends to kok up after sum hav gone off tempo or do wrongly... time to correct tat?? nah.... juz concentrate on the day itself... follow ur own hearing... dun juz c ppl do den follow... the only ting to follow is dressing n timing... den as for wad i said abt finding sumone to motivate u... i seriously meant it when i said tat if u cant find anyone to motivate u den use me k... dunoe y u all laugh oso.. hahahha... bud for charlie... seriously i really hope u all can do it for someone... n i'll be happy to be the someone for u all coz i've seen u ppl grow since u all sec1... now u all sec3.. gg become NCOs liao... n i already leaving... i hope u all can do it for me if u all find no reasons to do it... its sad but i doubt i'll be wif u all for ur camp next week... the ting is i'll love to c u all thru ur last cadet phrase bud my itp doesnt allow me to n thus hope u all can zhen qi... no need make any promises or anyting... juz do it tis sat... even if u all dun get into final round or even win anyting.. as long as u noe u've tried ur best... i'm happy for u... as for the NCOs.. if cant find anyone u all can use yu ching sir to motivate urself ah... still can rmb u all last yr said tat tis yr u all will make sure he run out of camp to c u all win the trophy again.. so do it for him.... winning sumting is not impossible... last yr has already shown u all tat if u all believe n u all try.. u all can do it one... its juz a matter of putting ur heart into it rite now... those who c tis might wan to tell the others who might not c it.. sorry i couldnt express myself beta juz now.. bud really hope all of u will giv it ur best.. tats all i can offer to u all..
so tml is friday... dunoe wad i gg to do bud afternoon gg nchs to sort of say goodbye to the sec1s n 2s... the parade dunoe wad i gg to do oso... hahaha.. den sat whether i gg fd comp anot haven decide... coz evening gg play soccer den dunoe can make it in time not.. hahaha.. ala tats abt all... nth much else to update le... go play fm liao.. hahaha
