Friday, January 27, 2006 at 00:33
death
okie... time for yet another update... hahhaa... ppl who r lazy to update their blog, time to get going!!! hahaha.. kk.. tue do wad... nth i tink... oh ya.. had quiz.. hahhaa.. cham la.. i cheated... n helped my cheaters to cheat oso.. hahhaa.. quite easy leh the paper... bud tat view seems to differ from the others.. hahhaa.. den wed went watch "i not stupid too".. knn... pay more again.. evrytime like tat... tis time coz preview so $8 each.. wah lan eh... bth.. den ate pastamania.. still say comments, expensive n unfilling... hahaha.. den walked at PS for like 3hrs... sumore wear the new shoes which is sooo, and i must stress again, SSSOOOO tight... walk till leg pain.. worst ting is walk do nth.. juz keep walking arnd the same areas.. hahhaa.. b1 to lvl 3.. n repeat.. hahhaa.. den watch finish movie go heeren.. b4 i tok abt heeren.. the movie aunty very cute sia... ask wan centre or side.. den we say side.. then she ask last row okie not.. knn.. end up the last row is like sit at the door there sumore only 2 seats by itself.. so stuffy oso... retarded... hall 10 if i not wrong... sucker aunty.. of coz we moved.. lol.. den go heeren go the action city c tings awhile den go home liao.... n btw during the 3hrs.. sum smart ppl at PS action city keep opening tings tat arent meant to be opened lar... dumb shit... if kena caught i nth to say.. hahaha.. den today go sch lesson den after tat got balloting for itp places... sad la.. in the end i shld be gg to Quest Lab at sumwhere near queensway shopping centre n ikea there... hahaha.. gg wif clarice and wen guang n sumone else.. no wish to put tat name in my blog.. hahaha.. too bad.. hopefully wont regret ba.. tat clarice cant get raffles hosp den so dots... hahhaa.. ala.. raffles nia.. not say there got gold.. hahahhaa.. den tml gg for mah's tutorial which i tink about one quarter of the class wont appear.. hahhaa... den poi den gems den maybe poi again.. sian.... juz finished my gems critique 2... so the little contents again.. hahhaa..
kk.. back to my title on death. nth to do wif me knowing i gona die soon or anyting like tat.. i dun.. hahaha.. bud juz wana tok about death in general.. when a person dies, his/her body ceases to function.. of coz wad happens to the soul or spirit if there's any i do not noe.. bud at least for those around the person who died, they shld juz get on wif life.. of coz its gg to be saddening... i cried oso when my grandma left.. the ting is i cried on the day itself.. n hav nv cried for her ever since... i mean she's gone, she's gone. wad i can do is to move on wif life while oso i will commit myself to tink of the memories she has left me wif. memories tat i'll recall n regret about... nevertheless, there's not much else i can do about it... i feel tat it'll be the same oso in the future if sum1 close to me leaves... sure i'm gona be devastated.. i'll cry.. sure.. n how long will it take for me to get over it will depends on how much memories i shared wif tat person... after the recalling... i shld be up n ready to go again... i guess tis is pretty much the same as getting over ur so called loved ones as in bgr... u cry... u feel sad... u tink of all the wonderful memories u had... u tink of all the fantasies tat u had wished for... n u get stuck there... hahaha.. tis is rather the common among secondary school students... of coz its not advisable to go into relationships at such ages as the pro would put it bud i do noe tat sumtimes, the hormonal change might be too much for us to bear... of coz the peer pressure sure doesnt help and oso a need for sum1 to share ur emotions wif.. bud shld the day comes tat ur other half wants a change, there really isnt much to do except cry ur hearts out, recall, and move on... there's no point in hoping n asking n looking for a patch or anyting coz i do believe tat wads done is done.. no matter how u undo it, there'll still be scars n marks left.. it'll nv be the same as b4.. n it'll nv turn out to be wad u really want... n at such age, if u do go tink abt it... if lets say u get together at 15yrs old.. n if u intend to wed tat person, a 23 or 25yrs old age would be a reasonable one.. so tat means at least a 8 to 10yrs relationship.. n to tink tat during tis period u'r gona miss out on so many other opportunities passing by u.. shld ur marriage plan not materialise, u'r gona end up losing alot of time... so juz try ur best to concentrate on ur studies and forget abt wad has past or happened... the best u can do to them is to store them as memories of ur live and carry on... no specific ppl the above portion is for except those few who hav been dragging on too long yea?? the ting hai n the lazy one.. hahhaa.. n maybe got more tat i do not noe of.. hahhaa...
anyway reali regret my decision to live life wif no regrets.. hahhaa.. twice i decided to be open about my feelings and both times i shot myself in the foot.. how nice a decision.. hahhaa.. so i guess its back to being cautious and more tinking n suppressing instead of juz shooting my hands off coz both times i used my hands n not mouth.. hahaha.. tats about all la... damn long liao.. bud as i said.. once u start, u cant stop.. hahhaha
